strange feelings

why do i feel like there's something not quite right somewhere around? could it be just PMS? am i being paranoid?
really don't feel quite the same right now. something's the matter and have to do something. the question is what? i don't know and just hope it's just paranoia setting in right now.
don't need this feeling, especially right now. am already not getting enough sleep. looks like i'm going to put in extra hours for work till the end of the week. already worked thru' lunchtime yesterday.
please give me a sign everything's all right. please make this nagging feeling go away.........

can't keep them open

had a very concentrated mug of coffee about 2 hours ago. then mother brought home chicken soup from the neighbour upstairs, did some alterations to it and added some noodles in it, then practically force-fed me - at midnight.
funny thing is the caffeine is not working how it's supposed to. the only thing it's doing right is making me lose water. it's not keeping me up!!
am trying to get rid of the habit of procrastinating. exams' coming and i've not started on any revision yet. this is going to be a very long week ahead. been enjoying too much holidays this month.
whatever it is, will definitely take a break after the exams. truly need a relaxing moment before it all starts all over again.

stressed out

am stressed out. face is erupting like nobody's business. nothing's helping. don't have time to relax. everything's due. project evaluation, assignment, revision...

did this on sunday morning

let the pictures speak for itself
start time : 0740hrs

missed the 1km, 2km & 3km marks




end time : 1005hrs

creativity at work

casper in the daytime? :D

why did i?

been thinking eversince i started taking up studying on part-time basis. why did i bother?
am working and earning quite comfortably. don't have any committments. was able to give enough to the parents to cover household expenses and still save up for self. heck, have forgotten almost everything learnt in the polytechnic. sure didn't need all the headache now :)
the main factor, have to say is that i felt my brain cells depleting by the day. and also i really miss studying. office politics sure is an eye-opener. a big one that is.
it's not just the work you do. you have to make sure the superiors are aware that you are 'working' plays the bigger factor. you can go in and spend the whole day in front of the computer doing nothing and attending meetings while keeping up the appearance of being busy and the bosses will give you a good grading. make one wrong move and your entire working life will be scarred forever.
learnt that the hard way. in school, the exams depend on you and only you. if you know it, you know it. if you don't then good luck to you.
so for those of you who are still studying, enjoy that as long as you can. got to get back to assignment. now where's the notes......

burnt out

fell sick last week. had a literal burnout. had quite high fever.
stingy doctor only gave a day of mc. had to take another day off by taking urgent leave. still have a little cough but after a weekend of rest am good as new now.
still have another assignment to do. 2 weeks more till the due date. after that it's cramming for exams.
can't wait for June. will finish paying off study loan so can start saving by then. 2 years of scrimping and not buying anything in the category of want. only by need basis.
ok need to get back to reading about radar. anybody out there who is familiar with radar please leave a comment. need to learn all technical details of radars.

where did the weekend go?

what happened to the weekend? didn't feel like one at all. came and went too fast.
really need a short break. before exams fever start, have to recharge the internal batteries. will burn out by the time exam period comes.
have to re-organise my life. priorities are going haywire. where did the organised me go? PDA is not being used as is should. need time-out to re-organise life.

to all mothers

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!!
to all mothers, mothers-to-be, mothers to mothers, etc. where are we without you?

sick

feeling under the weather at the moment. went out during lunchtime yesterday to arab street. walked under the hot sun for about 20 minutes. came back to a very cold office and immediately felt feverish.
reached home and just wanted to do my own stuff. was doing a bit of downloading (shhhhh!!!) and mother started nagging about wasting the electricity by leaving the computer on continuously and all that. all i want is to come home to a peaceful & quiet house but mother's voice was really annoying. it was so irritating.
just kept quiet and did own thing. she got more irritated by my ignorance and nagged even more. all i want is a little quiet cos i'm not well. sheesh!!
mother only realised i'm not well after we got back from the mosque at night. was contemplating taking sick leave but the thought of spending the day with dearest mother is enough push to get me to work. won't be able to sit in front of the computer in peace with her around. the electricity wastage lecture will start again. have to use the knowledge of school days now. will have to calculate power used by the computer/modem/speakers and compare to other appliances and see exactly how much power i use.
now where are those notes......

what if you find a watch in the sand?

got this from the mail. very inspiring.

what if you find a watch in the sand?
Suppose you find a watch in the middle of a desert. What would you conclude? Would you think that someone dropped the watch? Or would you suppose that the watch came by itself?
Of course no sane person would say that the watch just happened to emerge from the sand. All the intricate working parts could not simply develop from the metals the lay buried in the earth. The watch must have a manufacturer.
If a watch tells accurate time we expect the manufacturer must be intelligent. Blind chance cannot produce a working watch.
But what else tells accurate time? Consider the sunrise and sunset. Their timings are so strictly regulated that scientists can publish in advance the sunrise and sunset times in your daily newspapers. But who regulates the timings of sunrise and sunset? If a watch can not work without an intelligent maker, how can the sun appear to rise and set with such clockwork regularity? Could this occur by itself?
Consider also that we benefit from the sun only because it remains at a safe distance from the earth, a distance that averages 93 million miles. If it got much closer the earth would burn up. And if it got too far away the earth would turn into an icy planet making human life here impossible. Who decided in advance that this was the right distance? Could it just happen by chance?
Without the sun plants would not grow. Then animals and humans would starve. Did the sun just decide to be there for us?
The rays of the sun would be dangerous for us had it not been for the protective ozone layer in our atmosphere. The atmosphere around earth keeps the harmful ultraviolet rays from reaching us. Who was it that placed this shield around us?
We need to experience sunrise. We need the sun's energy and it's light to see our way during the day. But we also need sunset. We need a break from the heat, we need the cook of night and we need the lights to out so we may sleep. Who regulated this process to provide what we need?
Moreover, if we had only the sun and the protection of the atmosphere we would want something more-beauty. Our clothes provide warmth and protection, yet we design them to also look beautiful. Knowing or need for beauty, the designer of sunrise and sunset also made the view of them to be simply breathtaking.
The creator who gave us light, energy, protection and beauty deserves our thanks. Yet some people insist that he does not exist. What would they think if they found a watch in the desert? An accurate, working watch? A beautifully designed watch? Would they not conclude that there does exist a watchmaker? An intelligent watchmaker? One who appreciates beauty? Such is God who made us. SubhanAllah!

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