what's the point?

Salams to all

2009-09-16T00:15:00.001+08:00

just checking in after such a looooong time. this blog looks like it's dying of natural death, but i think i'll give it a little lifeline.

how's things been doing? everything's going quite well for me. still surviving at work and in life in general. it's almost reaching the end of Ramadhan already. how time flies. wish it could go a little slower. the cleaning for the upcoming Syawal is almost halfway done. curtain's up in my room already *winks*.

ok, i'm having writer's block already. been so long since i've written and it's after midnight anyway. so, i think i'll say goodnight for now. let's see when the next update will be...

got me another new toy

2009-02-20T10:20:00.003+08:00

been so long since i've been here. seems like there's not much to update nowadays.
last tuesday, after a very looooong consideration that made all the friends gave up on me, i've finally made up my mind and decided on a new mobile phone :

Sony Ericsson W902 in this exact colour. something i'd normally wouldn't pick as a first choice, but the shop i went to didn't have it in black. so, before i changed my mind again, i decided to just get this colour instead. the sis bought hers in green.
i'm very happy with the purchase. the camera's really good too - 5MP, and it comes with a 8GB memory stick. i'll be taking more pics soon...

slideshow

2009-01-06T17:20:00.001+08:00

i've discovered this :

enjoy the show :)

holiday summary & pics

2009-01-05T10:50:00.003+08:00

i've uploaded the holiday trip pics to India. check out the Zorpia link at the bottom of the right column. i'm glad i didn't cancel the trip. the penalty played a big part actually (LOL).
anyway, it was a really great experience, Alhamdulillah. i never imagined that i would survive such a long time with the sis alone, but we got home in one piece each.
there was one incident where the airport security didn't tag my hand luggage and i had to disappear without informing her and she got fuming mad with me. i had to scoot off like my pants were on fire for fear that i would miss the flight if i had to go through the security checks again. but i managed to just get the bag scanned and tagged without having to line up and get myself frisked again.
the other bad experience was that i developed a stomach upset from the second day of the trip. everything i put in my mouth went the way of the merlion. even threw up in the car on myself halfway through on a 6 hrs trip from Agra to Jaipur. the poor driver had to make a stop and clean up the mess. i felt so guilty that we gave him extra in tip.
the sis' camera had a little 'athma' attack when we reached Kashmir. we thought the camera had died on us but turned out the battery got a big shock in the cold temperature that it flatlined. so the pics of us in the snow wasn't captured with her camera. we made new friends in Kashmir. they were so kind to offer to take our pics at Gulmarg Mountain with their camera.
that's the summary of the trip. overall, we had such a good experience and so much fun. if given another chance, i would like to go there again. despite the bad news reports, it's not a dangerous place at all.

reflections 2008

2008-12-31T22:50:00.003+08:00

how time flies. 2008 is now approaching to an end soon.

it's been a very roller coaster year. there are some high times and there are the low times.

i've experienced some interesting instances since the beginning of the year. some has been good, some has been not so good. the best thing that's happened is that i've finally completed my part time course after some struggle along the way.

overall, i've no regrets in all that's happened. everything that happened has gave me some lessons.

i just hope to do some major revamping of my life in the coming year.

i leave you with this pic of one of the most majestic monuments in the world :

another place of my dream i've just been to.

i'm done, finally

2008-11-29T20:10:00.002+08:00

i can now say i'm finally done with the studies. didn't get a good grade, but it's still a pass.

it's a sweet birthday present that nothing else can buy.

but to make it a not so good celebration, i'm down with the flu today. spent the whole day lying around. reading makes the head hurt.

ok, that's all for the latest update. head's starting to spin already.

minor gripes about life for now

2008-11-17T12:10:00.005+08:00

exam's just over. i'll praying hard that i've managed to answer enough to get a pass. i'm contented just to pass and get it over and done with. the assignments marks has given just enough marks.
i've just got a new project manager. now i'm answering to a fresh grad who not only doesn't have any work experience, he's also very much younger.
now, suddenly i feel like getting a diploma is not enough. you're still a white collared worker, but it can only take you up to a limited level. you still have to report to somebody with a degree. that piece of paper gives the person more responsibility and not to mention a very much higher salary scale. i've been working for almost 10 years and now i've to report to somebody who just got their first job.
talking about jobs, i'm now a little aprehensive in trying to apply to new jobs. although i did mention that taking a degree was just to see how far i can go, i think i'd still like to see what value that piece of paper would give me. in this economic downturn, you hear news of people losing their jobs and i'm grumbling about having to report to a newbie.
(ok, i realise that i'm contradicting myself in the second and third paragraph)
graduation from poly in 1998 pushed me right into the asian economic crisis. i spent almost a year looking for a job, landing into some temporary jobs along the way.
then came the minor downturn in 2001/2002. i missed getting affected since i was still new to this job. now the downturn is here again. this time, i got burnt a little more but i know i'll still survive.
i put in a huge chunk of my savings into some investment stock only to see the value drop like stone in water a few weeks after buying it. then came the american investment company going bust causing myy cpf investment to drop in value too. the melamine case in china simply 'helped' since part of the investment was linked to growth of china. i hope that i'll get at least my capital value back even if i don't get much or any profits.
yesterday, i did something i didn't expect i would do. an early morning sms resulted in a trip to the Singapore Expo Exhibition Halls. there was an MPH books sale, Crocs sale and some other offers.
when we first looked at the queue to enter the Crocs sale, we decided not to enter the sale at all. but an encounter with a very satisfied purchaser of the Crocs footwear convinced us to queue up. well, the line to enter the hall was moving and we finally got into the hall in an hour. but the next queue really tested my patience and strength. i stood for four (4) hours to pay. by the time i'm done paying, i was so hungry and my body was just telling me to shut down.
but after looking at the result of the ordeal, i'm very happy with what i did. would i do it again? maybe if the products are really worth it. no pictures cos i didn't feel like taking them.

Salam Lebaran

2008-10-10T09:55:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin from Jamal Family :

it's really late, but it's still Syawal :)

another gadget

2008-08-28T14:50:00.003+08:00

i think i have to be restrained from entering anymore computer or IT exhibitions. next time, somebody please chain me.

just came back from COMEX and temptation got the better of me. bought a new mp3/media player.

i've been on a gadget buying spree this year. first was the new PDA, next was the laptop and now the media player.

i barely blinked my eyes when buying these gadgets, but when it comes to bags or shoes or other items mainly coveted by the fellow species, i'll get taken aback. i think i need to invest in a really durable and classic designed bag to carry these items. the bags i carry don't last me as long as i use these gadgets. *LOL*

mac & pc users

2008-08-19T15:55:00.003+08:00

extracted from Reader's Digest (Singapore) August 08, page 15:

MAC USERS ARE

ARROGANT SNOBS

If you've seen those Apple advertisements on TV with a young, hip Mac user versus an old, slow PC user, you should get the idea that there's a bit of rivalry between the opposing computer camps. But why?

Because they have wholly different personality traits, say branding experts. Mindset Media, a US branding company that analyses the relationship between consumer behaviour and personality, surveyed 7500 Mac and PC owners. Its findings? Mac users are "snobs".

In comparison to PC owners, they're likely to visit Starbucks for coffee more often, buy organic products and drive a hybrid car. Mindset Media says that people who purchase Macs fall into what it calls the "Openness 5" personality category - which means they are more liberal, less modest and more assured of their own superiority than the population at large.

The rivalry continues...

who, me?? a snob?? let's just say i'm different from the rest. i rest my case.

presenting to you the newest family member

2008-07-30T09:35:00.002+08:00

next, need to upgrade the handphone.
i'm such a gadget freak...

delivered

2008-07-29T11:45:00.002+08:00

i'm so excited that i can't wait to get home today.
it's been so long since i'm this excited. hehe...

new baby

2008-07-28T10:20:00.002+08:00

last friday, after contemplating for so long, i've finally decided. the confirmation from the rebate centre made the decision final.
wait for the pics of the new baby soon.
i'm so excited.

last saturday...

2008-07-21T17:40:00.001+08:00

watched fireworks in the rain.
very interesting experience.

it's june already

2008-06-04T16:15:00.002+08:00

half a year is already here.
how time flies.
i need a good long break before i get busy again.
after this, i'm going to search for better pastures.
it's getting too mundane here.

if it's free, i'm there

2008-04-29T14:30:00.003+08:00

last year
this year :

for this snaking queue, it took less than 30 min for me to get to the end point.

this 'cow' starts dancing when you put some money in the box it's standing on.

my 'loot', chocolate fudge brownie

on a high

2008-04-09T10:55:00.002+08:00

a dose of cough syrup followed by coffee afterwards.
makes an interesting combo.
interesting feeling too.
try it someday.
really, do try...

i got me a new toy

2008-03-10T11:00:00.004+08:00

last night, the sister and me braved the IT Show crowd to look for a bargain for a new tv and a new toy for myself.
the night ended with getting a pretty good deal on a new tv set and a new toy for me.
here's my new toy :

it was a little sad to part with the old toy but this one was too tempting to resist. besides, i've not spent on anything major for myself lately. the old toy will be passed on to a new owner very soon.

to all women

2008-03-08T14:30:00.002+08:00

it's International Women's Day today.
enjoy the day :)

for you, a thousand times over

2008-02-14T09:30:00.003+08:00

i have just finished reading The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. the story is not a very heavy read, but it is just filled with so much emotions. the movie's already out, but i don't know if i want to watch it.
i have been reading quite a lot lately. reading books made into movies to be exact. movies don't do much justice to books in my opinion. while it can potray the scenery and settings of the story, it doesn't really bring the true emotion of the book through. some movies even omit certain parts to keep the movie at a time limit.
take for example, Harry Potter. watching the movie after reading the book is such a disappointment. the movie is like another dimension. it only extracted some key points from the books and leaves out the reason behind it. certain characters who were potrayed prominently in the book were not in the movie version of the series.
given a choice of a movie or a book, i'd pick the book. nothing beats the feeling of immersing yourself into a book. it's like the world doesn't matter just for that moment while you have the book in your hand.
i've got my next read in hand. will be starting on it very soon.

this is it

2008-01-30T00:40:00.001+08:00

this comment has stayed with me since it has been mentioned. at that point of time, i still have a few more modules to take so i just didn't bother to look around.
last week, something that is not my responsibility to monitor was made into a very big issue. i admitted to overlooking my part of the responsibility, but the person who is supposed to monitor that particular item was not even questioned.
after the above comment was made, i have lost the heart to continue working in this place. what made me stay is the thought of having to settle into a new work environment and still studying. didn't know how to adjust since i can do my schoolwork while at work now.
after the one-to-one meeting last monday, i left the room feeling so down and frustrated and dejected. nothing has ever made me feel so bad about myself. he made me feel like i owed him the position i am at right now at work.
i firmly believe in retribution. i will not retaliate as that will make me look even worse than what he has make me look like now. maybe i have become comfortable that i became complacent, but i truly do not believe that i am worse off that what he said i am. i will definitely go before you can have the chance to put me in a worse position.
maybe my journey has to take on a new path. it will be sad to leave the place that i have considered to be my second home for the past 7+ years (i spend more time there than at home). but something has to change sometime or somewhere. it may do me a lot more good that staying here.

so long 2007

2007-12-31T18:20:00.000+08:00

the year is now coming to an end. it's been quite a journey.
didn't quite manage to clear something i badly want to see an end to, but it's ok. i'll work very much harder to end it, Insya Allah.
what's important is i manage to go through the year in one piece, Alhamdulillah.
i got through my 20s well too. am now officially in the 30s for a month already. frankly, i don't feel like i'm 30. what's most important is i'm healthy and loving my life.
next step, let's wait for it. i don't have any resolutions to make. will just stay the course as long as i can.
so, here's wishing everyone a good year ahead.

almost there...just one more

2007-11-12T12:10:00.000+08:00

just one more exam to go. praying hard i make it...

on leave

2007-10-06T17:30:00.000+08:00

will be on leave till thursday. plan is to clean and then make a dress for this raya.
i was planning to start clearing up the pile of mail i've stacked up on the table then the pile of odds & ends in the room.
that was just the plan. till now, all i've done is move things around.
the highlight of the day is......i've got wireless internet!!
and i've got mio tv. 6 months free. nothing much on offer now so i'll have to make do with what's available first.
hope 1 week is enough time for me to do all i've planned for. hehe...

laziness at it's peak

2007-09-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

i can't believe i spent one week watching the whole season of Heroes.
work's a little slow at the moment and i'm just too heavy to do housework more than the normal chores.
i've only got one question of my assignment left to do and then gotta start preparing for exams.
after this i'm not sure what i want to do. i don't think i want to submit the cert at work. wasn't in the plan anyway.
ok, i've to clear up some stuff before hitting the bed.
nite-nite and have a good week ahead.

friends

2007-09-22T14:10:00.000+08:00

met up with some very old friends for iftar last night. it was really fun. we have to do this more often.
anyway, talking to these working mothers assured me that it's not quite possible to be doing everything without additional help. thank you very much for that. now i don't feel as bad as before for not doing much help at home.
oh, i've finally finished watching season 2 of Prison Break. so now have to get back to my final assignment.
enjoy the weekend :)

random update

2007-09-18T10:00:00.000+08:00

firstly, to all muslim brothers and sisters, Ramadhan Mubarak to you all.
secondly, i just want to announce that i've kept this blog for 3 years already. time really goes by so fast doesn't it.
thirdly, i don't know how working women can handle work and housework on their own. by the time i get home i'm really drained. mother complained that after we come back from Terawih, she still has to clean up the kitchen while we become a mass of lumps outside the kitchen.
i know you're not as young as you used to be. something you used to do without much effort is now getting a little taxing. sorry...
anyway, have a good day to all of you.

desires

2007-08-30T09:10:00.001+08:00

i have a new object of desire now. i know what i want to get for my birthday. it's in 3 months time so i have enough time to save up for it.
yes, i get my own presents. it's better to get your own since you know exactly what you want. besides, this is too expensive to accept from others.
anyway, COMEX starts today. i'm so there to go drooling and desiring for more gadgets.
anybody wanna join me?

my life

2007-08-22T10:15:00.001+08:00

can i just live my life as i like it? must i really conform to what has been set at the norm?
i can see the look in their eyes and faces whenever the inevitable question is thrown in my face. must you really give that expression? it's getting very annoying ok.
i take life as it comes. i do believe that what is meant to happen will happen; sometimes by chance, sometimes by a bit of work.
whatever it is, please let me lead my life as i deem it best for me. i'm very tired of getting disappointed time and time again. (i think i've been reading too much that i get carried away and expect the same things in real life *LOL*)
i really don't mind missing out on something if it means i don't have to compromise. this is something not worth compromising on just because. i'll accept only if it's really worth it.

finished reading

2007-07-27T14:35:00.000+08:00

ok, i couldn't wait till the paperback was out. just had to know what happened.
an unexpected character was killed off. i was shocked and not to mentioned horrified about that.
didn't quite like the last chapter (the epilogue).
the writing was a little rushed at the end. the writer didn't really tie up the loose ends. still a few settings not explained. it could have been written a little better, but that's just my opinion.

wrong spoiler

2007-07-23T10:45:00.001+08:00

the last harry potter book's out.
the spoiler i searched for turned out to be wrong.
still kinda sad to see who died, but not as sad as before.

almost there

2007-07-20T20:20:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, i made it through the exams. now one more module left and, as i mentioned in the previous post, it doesn't look simple at all.
i finished reading Harry Potter 1 - 6. i was feeling so curious as who JKR wanted to kill off in the final book and decided to google up any websites that can reveal the spoilers.
found a few that revealed the secret. oh imagine the shock and sad feeling i felt when i read who they were. *sniff* *sniff*
ok, i won't spoil it for you. but one advice if you want to read the book, be prepared with the tissue/hankies.

wonderful weekend

2007-07-17T14:35:00.001+08:00

i've finished reading 5 of the Harry Potter books. just 1 left before the 7th and final book is released. after i'm done with the 6th book, i'll wait a few months for the 7th book to be released in paperback before i buy it; since all the 6 books i bought are paperback version.
anyway, after this i don't think i'll be doing any recreational reading. for the next 4 months at least. checking the assignment for this semester almost made me fall off my chair. the module is going to kill me. there are sooooo many things to do just for the assignment. even the open book exam doesn't sound like such a good thing either. open book exams are just to fool you into a sense of security. the questions are not that 'open' at all. sheesh...
right now, i'm trying to avoid a cousin. she was so keen to introduce a guy to me. i have no idea how to tell her i'm not interested. can you please go and irritate another cousin. i'm very busy and, as i've already mentioned, i don't have the time to invest in this. my free time is for myself. can i be selfish just for this instance?
i have other reasons, but let me just keep them to myself. i can't tell anyone about it. what i can say is the heart works in it's own way. i can't stop it, but i can suppress it and not let anyone know. it's something i cannot share to anyone.

how's it going

2007-07-12T10:10:00.001+08:00

i finally got the mood to write now. a long entry to make up for the long silence.
semester 1 exams are finally over and the results will be released tomorrow. i think i've made it with 1 of the module, still not sure what the outcome of the other module will be. i'm praying hard that i pass. then 1 more module to be taken in semester 2 and i'll be done. i've pushed myself as far as i can go with furthering my studies. i'm so looking forward to doing some recreational courses that doesn't require exams. i've had enough exams to last me the rest of my life, thank you very much.
i tried to request for an additional exemption but the request was turned down. i was a little disappointed but was prepared to receive that answer. 4 more months to go before the final exams (for me).
a few weeks ago, 1st July to be exact, i made the decision to change my lifestyle, and it's already been 10 years already, Alhamdulillah. that was the day i decided to put on the tudung. i spent a long time to think about it. it's not just a piece of additional cloth you put on. it's something very spitual and takes a load of courage. you have to be very prepared to do it.
i've been doing something i've missed doing for a very long time. i've been doing some reading. reading non-engineering books to be exact. i finally caught the Harry Potter fever. i've been wanting to read the books for a very long time but didn't really bother to get the books. after the last exams, i was in need for some treat and found myself in a bookstore one lunchtime. a 20% discount plus additional 5% if you pay by DBS credit card was too good to resist. i stacked up books 1-6 on the spot. i'll wait a while to get to the 7th book. maybe when the crowd dies down, and when the paperback adult edition is out.
a colleague passed some e-books but i couldn't read them cos i can't install them in my PDA. i've installed an e-book reader in it but seems like the reader doesn't recognise the file and the software just wouldn't upload the e-books into the reader.
i've always loved to read. i prefer to curl up in a corner and bury myself in a story. i actually find pleasure to read and imagine the story the characters are going through although movies has been made based on some books, nothing beats the creativity of the mind. the lure of a storybook never fail to bring me so engrossed that i can ignore everything else. i even became a librarian in school just to get my hands on any latest books. direct me to a library or bookstore and you can say goodbye to me till it closes. my hangout when in poly was the library. if i'm not doing assignments, i'll be looking for books to read. i love the company of books than people. at least if a book is not interesting, you can just put them away and forget about it.

so irritating

2007-06-21T10:45:00.000+08:00

there is one classmate of mine who really gets on my nerves. she's smart, but so annoying and irritating. she's the only person who has got on my nerves to the point of making me turn off my mobile phone just to avoid receiving her calls. it takes a lot, and i mean a whole LOT, to get on my nerves.
i thought that by getting married and moving to another continent i'll get some peace from the constant calls i used to get when we were rushing for time to complete assignments.
anyway, what makes me super irritated and annoyed with her right now is the exams. i do feel a little sorry for her now as she doesn't have any support for the course since she's moved away from SG. i do try to help out whenever i am able to. we are taking the same exam paper which was just over last Monday. since the time difference is to her advantage, she wanted me to inform her what are the questions that appeared in the paper.
isn't that unfair? everyone else didn't know what the questions will be and she was just waiting for me to inform her the questions - the exact questions. i told her it wouldn't be fair if i tell her the exact questions, but i can tell her to concentrate on which questions from the sample exam paper.
well, miss annoying here accused me of deceiving her. i got very pissed by that comment. i told her straight i did promise to help, but by giving out the questions i won't be doing justice to myself as well the others who took the exam without knowing the questions in the paper. i can help by giving a guide of what questions and topics she needs to remember to clear the paper.
there's a limit of how much you can help others. if it's within my means, i will definitely help others. i offer my services with no strings attached. i don't expect get any returns but if it involves a question of ethics and conscience, i have my reservations.
so i've got another paper to take next week. i'm requesting to get another credit thus another exemption for one module. if that is successful, then I'M DONE. FINISHED. COMPLETED.
let's hope and pray for the best.

just a few more days

2007-06-11T11:30:00.000+08:00

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where is the time?

2007-06-07T11:00:00.001+08:00

is there any way anybody can survive without sleep? i have so much to do and not much time left to do everything.
i've been trying all sort of ways to keep awake trying to study. i can't afford to flunk anymore. i've invested too much time and i'm getting very tired of doing it now. i have to finish up the course. i need to do something else before i go insane.
if i were to go for a total health check-up, i'm sure i'll fail. the stress hormones must be having a party in my body. i've been craving for all the comfort food. i actually asked for something i've not eaten in a long time yesterday. something i've not seen in the freezer at home for ages. haha...
ok, i'd better go before my head get more screwed up from the lack of sleep.

switched off

2007-05-30T09:45:00.000+08:00

i don't know why but i seem to be on an 'off' mode for the past few weeks.
i was so looking forward for something only to have written the event on a wrong date on my PDA. then yesterday, i was looking at a date for a scheduled meeting and got the date mixed up again.
i feel very detached too lately. like i'm living in my own world and i'm looking at everyone else through an invisible glass.
on another note, the programme manager seems to be in a very good mood. since he came back from an overseas working trip last week. first, he gave me a wink, an actual wink (where you blink an eye at a person) when i was giving him an update of some things about work. then just now, he bought 2 booklets of a carnival ticket and gave them to me telling me to enjoy myself.
only one thing i can say is, that man is really unpredictable. just last year when i was asking for a loooong leave he almost gave a lecture.
anyway, tomorrow's a public holiday. greetings to those who celebrate Vesak Day and enjoy the off day to the rest.
ps : PC show starts tomorrow (31/05/07) till sunday (03/06/07).

getting older

2007-05-23T11:00:00.001+08:00

i don't know if it's just me, or it's just the way life is turning into when you get older, or it's just the way people still thinks.
a few months ago, an aunt sms-ed and asked if i would be interested if she introduces me to a guy. that's not the issue. the issue is, he's a widower with 2 children. i don't have time to take proper care of myself, let alone another person, and she's suggesting an additional baggage??!!
then, yesterday, a cousin called. she was asking if i'd be interested in this guy she knows. one of the information she gave, he's a divorcee.
while i have absolutely nothing against those who's ever been married. you have your reasons, i'd rather stay away. far, far, away. i may be single but NOT desperate ok. there's still plenty of single guys around. i personally know of a few.
anyway, i'm still quite happy the way i am right now. with my current situation, i don't have the time to maintain any relationships other than the ones i have right now. (read : the family friends/colleagues).
i really don't have the time and energy to start getting to know a new person. actually, this is the reason why i don't date. i have a strict no dating policy because i hate the ritual. you feel so awkward and insecure. talk too much you sound like you are bragging. talk too little and you sound like you're not interested.
another thing is i don't like going out cos i'm only free on the weekends and that's when everyone else is free too so it's so crowded everywhere. then the phone conversations. something i avoid and make it really quick if unavoidable.
anyway, this is just me. disagree if you think it's nonsense, but i'm not going to argue. there's always the 'X' button on top.

the unpredictable cycle called life

2007-05-22T11:50:00.001+08:00

this news hit a little close to home, Innalillah.
this sad event was turned into a mini paparazzi affair when we were watching the malay news last night.
some members of the extended family turned into mini stars when the sis, the father and me excitedly identified them :D
anyway, lets just recite Al Fateha to everyone we know who has 'left' us.
Amin

that's me

2007-05-21T14:30:00.000+08:00

Q : what happens when miscommunication meets misunderstanding and me?
A : a totally screwed up plan with me getting screwed
it's like a nightmare while you're awake. you want to wake up but you are already awake. i was afraid something like this might happen and it finally did.
and another note, please don't just presume that you know that i got offended by something said. i do get upset with certain words directed to me, but i do not get offended. getting offended just takes up too much energy. i'd rather spend the energy somewhere else.

screwed (almost)

2007-05-17T10:45:00.000+08:00

exams coming in exactly one month's time and i haven't start any revision yet!
i'm so screwed...

when??!!

2007-05-15T00:55:00.000+08:00

next time i want to go on vacation, i'll do the planning.
no more joining somebody else, especially that particular somebody.
what a weekend. i'll be right under the coconut shell if anybody is looking for me......

update of previous post

2007-05-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

i have decided not to follow through to lodge a report, although i have not forgiven the person who did it. that person will still have to face the music though. what the people above have planned is up to them to decide. i still have the messages he sent so that can be used to punish him.
right now, the person's is on MC since the day after the incidence. in a couple of days time he will have to be sent to DB for 2 weeks. that will be 2 weeks of relief. for crying out loud, i'm working in a place which is suppose to be safe. to get in there are 2 levels of security to go through. and isn't working is a police base suppose to be safe? if not, i really don't know where else is. sheesh...
i'm supportive of the yellow ribbon project, but if a person who needs to be supported doesn't change their attitude, no projects be it yellow or brown or whatever colour will ever work.

deja vu

2007-05-03T01:35:00.001+08:00

one wednesday, 3 weeks ago, i was opening my coin/key pouch, where i keep my daily expenses money nicely folded up, to pay for lunch and discovered my last $4 was missing. to make things worse, the spare $10 i normally keep for emergencies like this was also missing.
i reported this to my programme & project managers but decided not to make too big an issue of this.
then yesterday lunchtime, the same thing happened again. this time i got so agitated cos i just withdrew my money in the morning. luckily it was at the canteen so now i still owe the stall auntie $2 for the meal.
this time, i made a very big hoo haa over the matter and threatened to make a police report. we had our suspect and upon his arrival back to the office, an urgent meeting was held. one of the senior officers made a check of the guys belongings and found nothing.
so, after work, when i was on the bus, the guy called and sms-ed. he admitted that is was in fact him who was the culprit. he begged for forgiveness and promised not to do it again. he was actually just released from prison a month ago for stealing. next week he will be sent to DB for another 2 weeks.
the question is, should i forgive him? as a first-born, i have been programmed to forgive. i can be very stubborn when it comes to certain things, but i am a softie if it involves human beings, especially if it affects their lives.
i strongly believe in karma. the effect of retribution. i will feel a certain level of guilt.
for instance, when i was hospitalised 10 yrs ago, one old lady was making a lot of noise that it made me unable to sleep. so i called a nurse and before i knew it, the old lady was wheeled out of the room and was made to sleep outside the door, to my horror! oh my, the guilt i felt made me shut up the following night and tolerated her rantings the remaining days i was warded.
do drop me a comment or mail or any form of communication. it would be very much appreciated (,")

still hanging around

2007-04-25T09:40:00.000+08:00

hello!!! i've been gone too long from here. i actually missed writing.

last week, this :

was on. this was what i really needed to perk me up. so, yours truly went ahead and lined up for that free cone. within an hour, i found myself in the line again and got myself another cone.

these were what i got :

(Chunky Monkey)(Sweet Cream & Cookies)

the sister called me a cheapskate, but hey, why should i refuse if i'm offered something. rezki jangan ditolak.

i'm also happy today. i remembered that the fee for one of my credit card is due this month. made a call to the card centre and got the fee waived.

anyone of you who has credit cards, take note. as long as you pay your bills on time, the bank will happily waive the fee upon request. just ask for it. i got this info from an ex-colleague who has friends working in a bank and from some newspaper report sometime back.

a quarter of 2007 is almost over. time really flies so fast. where did the last 10 years go? i feel like i'm still lost somewhere out there. heheh...

the next thing is, i've fallen in lurve. so hard and i'm almost obsessing about it.

i'm in lurve with this:

since my digicam's gone bonkers, i think this is a good substitute for the time being. maybe end of the year i'll get a digital SLR camera if the budget permits.

salary revision

2007-04-10T13:35:00.000+08:00

so the hoo haa of the raise in civil service paycheck. i still don't know how much i'm getting.
anyway, it won't make much difference. what the ministers will be getting in a month is what i earn in a year, maybe less.
whatever...

coughing

2007-03-29T10:35:00.000+08:00

i'm sick of being sick. i'd rather have been down and out then bounce back to health. i dislike getting coughs.
actually, i like my voice right now, but can i have it without the cough? pleaseeee.......
ok, it's the meds getting in my head now. weekend's coming. chill & i'm out...

sickeningly sick

2007-03-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

it's that time when the weather gets to you. right now, i sound like somebody who got lost from Changi Village (if you know what i mean)...LOL
didn't totally lost the voice this time. usually i'd really be at volume 0 for a couple of days.
anyway, i got another day off with the MC and managed to get some work done. that's a huge load off my chest (except for the phlegmy cough i have).
so have a good week ahead. the week will begin tomorrow for me :)

to all women out there

2007-03-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

today's International Women's Day. how nice is it to have a day dedicated for women.
to all women, be it babies, girls, students, mothers, career women, career mothers, etc...
i'm happy to be one )

tired

2007-03-01T11:00:00.000+08:00

what a nice weather it is to not be at work. but what to do, i've got loads of bills and whatever nots to keep up with.
last monday was really not my day. everything either went wrong or didn't turn out as planned. after asking for the opinion of several people, including the mother's, i was assured that i DID NOT say the wrong thing.
sorry for you to have felt that way, but i'm not sorry for saying what i said.
anyway, this kind of day is best spent doing something to warm you up :
hot chocolate - checked
jacket - checked
soothing music - checked
ok, time for a reality check. i'm at work now. back to work for me......

not my day

2007-02-26T17:25:00.000+08:00

how absent minded can i get?
i knew i had to be somewhere else, only to be reminded of it at 5pm.
5pm??!! the day's almost over!
i can be such an idiot...sheesh...

my life

2007-02-12T10:10:00.000+08:00

why do i suddenly have the feeling that i'm very disconnected from everyone?

i don't know what's happening to the outside world. it's like i'm living in a world of my own.

(i'm not joking about being in my own world)

i find that my priorities and mindset are totally different. i'm the last one to hear any news which by then would be old news already. i feel lonely even when i'm with people i know. everyone else will be talking about things that i'm clueless about.

it's very depressing ok. even for an anti-social like me...

happiness is infectious

2007-02-09T15:45:00.000+08:00

it's friday!! being with those who are happy sure is infectious.
can't wait for the day to end so the weekend can start.
see u guys later *winks* *winks*

something i'd like to share

2007-02-07T17:00:00.000+08:00

i have been really tired of my job for quite sometime now. not that i'm complaining of the workload, but it's not what i really want to do anymore. it's like i've lost my mojo in this line already. it doesn't give me any challenge anymore. everything is routine, and i hate routine. i didn't study what i studied (and still am studying) for this. in fact, i was really learning a lot in the previous job as well as the industrial attachment 10 years ago. that is the kind of work i'm really interested in.
anyway, i have been venturing into something else totally out of the engineering line. i'm very passionate about health. ask anybody who knows me, they'll vouch for that. i'm very choosy of what i put in my mouth that i've minimised most processed food. some food can't be avoided, but i really try my very best to keep my health and mind at it's peak. it's not an easy thing to do here in singapore.
reading this aussie girl's entries about her health scares recently reminded me of the health scare i went through 10 years ago. since then, i have been making sure i get at least lots of water to keep my body hydrated. i have been taking different supplements at different points of my life, but eversince i was introduced to this, i'm not looking back. i've found something that has really helped me. from the monthly cramps to the everyday nutritional needs to some really strong coffee. what makes it the best is you get paid for buying.
yes, it's a network marketing company, but what do you have to lose? it's just a membership with so much perks that you shouldn't think twice. i only joined to get the membership perks since i'm benefitting from the supplements and also the coffee. it's really strong i tell ya. just a sachet and you'll stay awake the whole night. hehe...
i really want to share the benefits of this to everyone. can you spare me a little bit of your time? drop me a comment or mail or sms.

there is a limit to everything

2007-01-16T11:20:00.000+08:00

i'm still thinking about this post i wrote last year. the same person is still hounding me to sell off my current iBook to him. i'm so irritated at him. he's been calling and calling till i had no choice but to resort to ignoring his calls.
i can't afford to get a new toy right now. had a sudden surge in the bills & insurance payments to pay off. after making the payments i'm left with just enough liquidated cash for emergencies.
what makes me really irritated is a few things:
this person drives a beemer. yes, that's right. a freaking BMW.
owns a landed property.
has a sideline job.
just bought a few MP3 players (including an iPod).
now, he's forcing me to sell off my iBook, my baby, for $400. what can i get for $400? doesn't even cover half the price of the cheapest macBook. i have a long list of items i want to get, but i'm not going to get any of them cos those are only what i want. i don't really need them urgently. i can't afford to get any of it yet.
if that person doesn't want to talk to me anymore, i'm fine with that. i didn't do anything wrong. i don't lose anything from this. as somebody quoted : "go screw spider ah" (he didn't actually use the word screw. i replaced it). hahah...

i'm still here, in case you're wondering

2007-01-11T10:15:00.000+08:00

i have not updated in a month and yet there are some people who actually bother to check this blog. for this, i thank you all, whoever you all are :)
wow, it's already almost halfway thru' Jan 07 already. i was too lazy to write that i missed doing what i normally do at the end of the year - that is to reflect on what happened. i don't do resolutions unless it is required. reason being, they never get done as planned. hehe...
well, it's still not to late to reflect since the Masihi year has not ended yet right. so here goes.
where 2005 has been a somewhat unproductive and forgettable year, i decided to get off my laurels and get it going in 2006. i pushed myself as far as i could go to see what i could achieve. i did a few stumbles and took a few falls, but that didn't deter me from finishing what i've started on. i did a few major detours in the path i was taking. i did something that i didn't think i could do, and did something that i thought i could do.
so now, i welcome the year 2007 with wide and open arms. this year will mark a new beginning. a year that i plan to do a few more major rehauling.
let's see what i can achieve this year. the year i will be leaving the life of a 20-something. i'm not afraid of getting old. bring it on baby. i'm living life as i want to, not as others want me to.

why not?

2006-12-11T01:57:00.000+08:00

since the move to the new office location, the commute is draining the life out of me. i spend over 3 hours commuting daily, from just under 2 hours before.
i have been introduced to network marketing for quite sometime. after a little consideration, i find that doing that is quite rewarding. i get my daily supplies from there, and get rewarded too. there is really nothing to lose.
so, if anyone is interested to find out more, please drop me a mail or comment. i'll be more than willing to share with you anything you want to know. from household items to health supplement.
don't just ask why, ask why not. you get rewarded just by doing the same thing, just a little differently.

the adventures of the father

2006-12-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

now that he's ok, i can upload this pic. he didn't want to inform the sis about this initially.

now that he's discharged and wasn't put on any food restriction, somebody's eating like he's not eaten for a week :

look at all those empty plates. heheh...

one year older, one year wiser

2006-11-29T01:20:00.000+08:00

so, what have i learnt for the past year?
after almost existing for 29 years, i surprised my own self by doing something i didn't expect i could do.
i learnt that anything is possible if you try hard enough.
i learnt that there are nice and kind people around when you least expect them to appear.
i learnt that life is too short to put off the things that you want to do.
i learnt that some things are just better off left the way it is.
well, there are more things that i have learnt in this journey we call life.
i don't regret a single thing i have done. i have lived, and still is living, my life the way i planned it to be. of course there are still more things that i would like to achieve. Insya Allah, i will do those if it is willed that i am able to.
the father's not feeling well right now.
ps : ms DivaH, it's nothing bad. no need to call home. a do'a for his health would be much appreciated.

Monday already?

2006-11-27T09:20:00.000+08:00

can the weekend be a whole week long?
i really dislike going out on weekends. it's the only time i get to catch up on my sleep and the home. i already spend more than 12 hours everyday out of the house, so weekends are for me to stay home and rot. yeah, i'm that boring.
can't wait till the last week of December. i'll be staying home to rot in peace before the house tornado comes home. heheh...

rubs hands is glee

2006-11-22T19:50:00.000+08:00

this calls for a plan. new digicam, new laptop, another break.
any other suggestion?
on another good note, a BIG CONGRATULATIONS to the sister for the exams. i knew you'd make it. all the (almost) panic attacks were unnecessary. *LOL*

looking forward to...

2006-11-21T11:30:00.000+08:00

the chances of this krazy cat coming back with the sister is looking good.
now i just need to convince the parents to let him into the house. hehe...

reminiscing

2006-11-15T01:10:00.000+08:00

looking thru' the photos from my last trip, can't help feeling so sad. the digicam just had to go bonkers right when i was trying to have a bit of fun.
now i'm looking for a new camera. haven't really decide on what brand or model to get. just looking for any cameras that makes use of SD card since the current bonked out camera's using that card.
i'm sad cos it is the first camera that is all mine. and also one of the first few pictures i took from that camera were these :

followed by a tragic end :

well, at least something good did happen as a result of the last 2 pics. made the horrible feeling i had a little lighter. just a little only.

one more day

2006-11-10T10:55:00.000+08:00

i'm hanging on for the weekend. was down and out literally yesterday with a cold. how i really dread having a cold. the stuffed up nose, the itchy throat, the blocked feeling inside the face cavity and not to mention the constant sneezing. once i start i can't stop. that's really tiring i tell ya...
only had MC for yesterday, so i have to hang on today before i get to knock myself out this weekend. here i come bed :D
ok, have a nice weekend everyone.

think happy thoughts

2006-11-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

suddenly, i feel so down and miserable inside yet again. i can definitely put the blame on the hormones. a sure sign i'm getting old. (i know what you're thinking naj. it's a long story which didn't include venus :D)
so what i'm going to do now is to force myself to think of happy thoughts and not wallow in misery as i would normally do. i will not let myself get sucked into a black hole.
my upcoming project will be :
to bring this little cutie here.

his "don't mess with me" look

checking out my luggage when i first got to the sis' place

who can resist this face?

see, he really wanted to follow me home. he was 'helping' me pack on my last night in oz. heheh...
after some enquiring on the net, turns out it's not that expensive to bring him back here. so ms 'DivaH', you settle all his shots over there, i'll settle the paperwork here. make sure he doesn't do the territorial marking again ok. *LOL*

Salam Lebaran

2006-10-24T06:50:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri, Maaf Zahir Batin to everyone.

life is unpredictable

2006-10-18T06:05:00.000+08:00

last night, an aunt from the paternal side succumbed to her illness and breathed her final breath. Inalillahi wa inaillahirraji'un. it's a blessing for her to go during this blessed month of Ramadhan. Semoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat, Amin.
ultimately, everyone will have to face death. it really doesn't matter what your status in life is. when it's your time, nothing can stop you.
it's how you live your life that really matters. you don't know what will happen to you next. you can be a healthy and fit, but that doesn't mean you will live till 100. you never know if you can even meet the next day or not. therefore, take the time to set your priorities.
i'm going to get mine straightened out too, Insya Allah. 6 more days of Ramadhan left. let's use these last few days wisely. you really don't know if you can meet the next Ramadhan or not.

i'm home

2006-10-10T09:35:00.000+08:00

landed last night about 8.30pm. feels so good to be at home finally.
the last 2 weeks had been a very great experience. the on-campus experience could have been better though. that was too short to be part of the course module at all. i found most of it irrelevant for us who's got work experience and those who's graduated from the polytechnics here.
anyway, the overall experience from everything had been an eye-opener. thanks to everyone i met. very much thanks to the sis
who's put her academic life on hold the entire time i was there. (i miss your cat already). now it's back to the real world for all of us. i've been slacking to the max and now i'm dreading the thought of having to go to work.
on a not so good note, the digicam's busted. couldn't take decent pics since last monday (2nd oct 06). so there's not much pics from sydney. the sis offered the use of her digicam but i declined. not the same as using your own.
there's just too many pics that i took prior to the soon to be demised digicam to upload here. i just can't be bothered to do it.

i'm online, finally!

2006-10-05T01:25:00.000+08:00

a quick hello to everyone. i'm doing fine here in the land down under, Alhamdulillah.
finally i got the connection to update this blog which has been collecting dust for almost 2 weeks.
it's almost 3.30am here but i'm not feeling that sleepy. i'm just too excited that i can finally update & check blogs. after only a week of being out of country, i feel so disconnected.
anyway, it has been a very good experience for me the past 1 week plus. spending the first day of Ramadhan not with the family wasn't the first time for me, but spending it out of the country is. what i miss is the porridge (bubur masjid)..hehe...
there's just so many things that i have to say, but i just can't find the words to express it all in the way i experienced it. (blame that on the engineer side of me - engineers make bad writers) :D
the things i had to do, the people i met, the friends who were with me and not to mention the family who is supporting me in their own way. all those me push myself out of my comfort zone. i really didn't think i have the guts to do what i did the past few days. i can do even more, Insya Allah. it's defininitely the blessing of this blessed month of Ramadhan too.
have a very blessed Ramadhan. will see you next week, Insya Allah :)

almost ready

2006-09-23T11:45:00.000+08:00

clothing is packed. toiletries and food are not.
tomorrow is the start of Ramadhan. wishing all brothers and sisters a Ramadhan Mubarak.
see ya in 2 and a half weeks.

complaining does pay

2006-09-20T16:30:00.000+08:00

i whine and gripe and bitch about a lot of stuff, but mainly to whoever is around. i seldom make it official. i'm normally too passive to do anything more than whine, gripe or bitch.
anyway, certain conditions made it necessary for me to take action. what conditions would that be? i'm most irritated and frustrated about bus services.
true, singapore has the most reliable bus system, the public busses that is. the private bus companies, well that's another story.
now that i'm working in a location that requires a shuttle bus to take me in and out of work premises, i expect the bus to meet the time schedule on the dot. there is this one driver who got on my nerves lately. he'll only arrive at the front gate at the time he's supposed to go out of it. if it happened only once or twice i wouldn't mind. afterall, he's only human. nobody's pefect. but he's been doing it for a few weeks.
what do i do? i wrote in the the logistics officer and explained the situation. following day, bus came and left on time, and i'm all smiles.
the end.

something good

2006-09-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

The Truth About Chocolate and Your Skin
Here's a formula for sensational skin: cleanser, moisturizer, sunscreen, and . . . chocolate?

You heard right. When eaten, flavanol-rich cocoa, the main ingredient in dark chocolate, improves skin's texture, thickness, hydration, and blood flow. It may even boost your skin's defense against the sun by up to 25 percent! How? It packs serious antioxidant power. Just don't overdo it -- chocolate is high in fat and calories, too. And you still need to wear sunscreen every day.

yeah...bring it on baby...

the best lain plan...NOT

2006-09-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

true to the signature picture on top, i'm living up to it. i'm planning to fly off in 2 weeks time and i'm still without a ticket. still haven't plan on anything yet.
this will be the first time i'll be travelling on my own now that the travel partner's out of action indefinitely. i might need to open an invitation for a travel partner. (will have to blog on this by itself someday) :D
ok, to ms juli, this is the plan i got:
- to sydney on 23rd Sep
- to brisbane on 24th Sep
- back to sydney by night train on 2nd Oct (if you're not joining me)
- fly back home on 9th Oct
list the things u need in my comments box. i'm too lazy to get a pen & paper.

no more pain

2006-09-05T09:25:00.000+08:00

after suffering from painful cramps every single month for over 15 yrs, today, i declare myself pain-free. i tried painkillers, traditional herbal remedies, exercise, but none of them actually gets rid of the pain completely. the best i felt was a lesser degree of pain.
what finally relieved me from the pain? it's this product :

Elken LD Venus
after consuming almost 4 boxes (1 box contains 20 bottles), i am finally relieved from the pain. this is the first time i'm not moody, cranky, miserable, etc.
i'm actually feeling happy. so happy that i want to skip around and sing. i'm that happy. for those of you who have never had cramps before, you don't know what PAIN actually is. for those who needs pain reliever, i'll be very happy to share this with you. it's worth every cent, trust me.
PS : different people will need different amount. some friends needed only 1 box, while some needed more.

happy born day

2006-09-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

to the divah perasan, happy 23rd year on this world. may u have many more blessed years ahead.

just waiting

2006-08-31T11:20:00.000+08:00

[quote] "if somebody can take leave for more than 2 weeks and not affect any work, then that person is redundant" [unquote]
then what if that person is taking maternity leave? that's 3 months. what about urgent medical conditon that is very unplanned? that may require an even longer absence than maternity leave.
i need to go for some school work for 2 weeks at the end of next month. isn't 1 month sufficient for me to give notice? i did inform of this earlier, even before the leave freeze started, but just didn't actually put up the leave application.
ok, so i've not much load at work, but that doesn't mean i'm totally redundant. it's your decision to re-org the team this way. it's not that work can't be covered. i'm going away for official purpose, and since i'm going to another country, shouldn't i take the opportunity to side track a little. i saved up on my leave just for this purpose. like i care if i'm not pulled in to do the extra duties. that's not my fault.
frankly, i've lost the passion to come to work for a long time already. i'm just waiting for the right time and opportunity. this is no longer my calling anymore.

i survived this long

2006-08-28T14:00:00.000+08:00

today marks my 6th year that i am working in this organisation. that's already crossing the half decade mark. how i've changed, and seen many changes take place along the way too.
i'm happy how things are turning out. not everything went as planned, but i'm grateful for the experiences i gained. have a nice week ahead everyone.

time for a change

2006-08-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

i've been talking of making changes lately. well, i'm finally doing it. first change was the study programme i was doing. then i cleared off all the junk i carried home over the years, especially the stuff i brought back from my last job - that was 7 freaking years ago!! heh...
so, i had a theme in mind when i was doing the clearing up. theme was : "how to pack easy if i move out". i just want to pick the stuff up and put them in boxes if i do plan on moving out. now that i'm on the wrong side of 20, my shelf life is running out of display time soon. only 6 more years till i'm eligible to apply for a HDB flat.
anyway, most of the junk are gone, i've got space i didn't know i had and found things i thought were gone. re-arranged the wardrobe space. haven't really thrown out the unused clothes yet, but that shouldn't take up too much time.
the last major change will depend on one thing. i might go for it all the way. leave this line for good. if not, it will definitely be a part of my life journey.
talk about mid-life crisis. i think i'm going thru' mine here. *LOL*
it's monday, so a fresh start to the work week. have a nice week ahead!!

Happy National Day

2006-08-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

Happy 41st National Day to Singapore.
there will always be issues with everything, but i'm still proud to be flying the singaporean flag. this is where i'm born, and this is where i will always call home.
there is no place like home, really.

made a little change

2006-08-02T12:50:00.000+08:00

i've switched the programme i'm doing. dropped the 2 modules that i'm suppose to be doing since it's not going to be included.
therefore, this means i'm free as a lark now. still need to catch up on the backdated newspapers though. after that, i'm free till february 2007.
i've never been this free since i took up the part time course in july 2003. suddenly feel like something's missing from my daily life. i'm that used to the tight schedule.
on another note, the gym membership that i'm paying for now will be ending this month. i'm thinking of terminating the membership and go back to the previous fitness centre i was from. the classes conducted there are much more suited for ladies, but i also love the classes conducted at the current gym, (not to mention that cute bodycombat/bodybalance instructor), and the charges are lesser too. it's just a little troublesome as it's a commercial gym.
i think i'll see what they can offer me. if they can lower the monthly charges even lower or upgrade the membership, i think i might continue. i'll just play by ear. i might still be able to go to both places if all goes well, and get paid too instead of paying for it...heh...

did my best

2006-07-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

ok, the ordeal for the day's over. i know i did my best.
i just need a little more time. next time, i'll definitely ace it.

butterflies in the stomach

2006-07-28T09:50:00.000+08:00

the nervous factor has kicked in. wish me all the best. let's see if tomorrow will be a success or not.

looking good

2006-07-26T10:50:00.000+08:00

life's more or less on track. i might want to make a little change soon. nothing major. just a deviation from the original plan.
anyway, i've got a major crush on the bodycombat instructor. makes going to the class soooo enjoyable.
it's just a crush ok, nothing major. just to remind myself i'm normal. hahah...
ok, that's all for now. have a nice rest of the week. will be a busy weekend for me.

been thinking

2006-07-24T09:30:00.000+08:00

reading back the past few entries made me realise something. that's so not me. i sound so negative. i'm an eternal optimist. i usually find something good even when things are not going the way i planned it.
maybe this is the first time that i'm facing a situation where i need to question where i want to go in life. but i'm not the one to give up easily. i normally finish up whatever i've started, not leave it hanging somewhere out there. i do want to do it, even if it will take me longer (and cost me much more).
so, even if i'm not doing well in anything, i'll make sure i finish it up. i'll make sure there's closure before i move on to other things i want to do.
ok, going to do my work now. have a nice week ahead people. stay positive and keep that smile on your face. you really never know who's looking at you c",) (",) (,") :-)

what to do?

2006-07-21T14:05:00.000+08:00

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the pics i promised

2006-07-21T09:00:00.000+08:00

these are to complement the videos i took the other day :

check this out.
warning : it can be very addictive and frustrating. have fun

the waiter and the spoon

2006-07-18T11:00:00.000+08:00

pics are being edited. for now, enjoy this :

Last night, I went with some friends out to a new restaurant, and noticed that the waiter who took our order carried a spoon in his shirt pocket. It seemed a little strange. When the busboy brought our water and utensils, I noticed he also had a spoon in his shirt pocket. Then I looked around I saw that all the staff had spoons in their pockets.
When the waiter came back to serve our soup I asked, "Why the spoon?"
"Well," he explained, "the restaurant's owners hired a consulting firm to revamp all our processes. After several months of analysis, they concluded that the spoon was the most frequently dropped utensil. It represents a drop frequency of approximately 3 spoons per table per hour. If our personnel are better prepared, we can reduce the number of trips back to the kitchen and save 15 man-hours per shift."
As luck would have it, I dropped my spoon and he was able to replace it with his spare. "I'll get another spoon next time I go to the kitchen instead of making an extra trip to get it right now."
I was impressed!
I also noticed that there was a string hanging out of the waiter's fly.
Looking around, I noticed that all the waiters had the same string hanging from their flies. So before he walked off, I asked the waiter, "Excuse me, but can you tell me why you have that string right there?"
"Oh, certainly!" Then he lowered his voice. "Not everyone is so observant... That consulting firm I mentioned also found out that we can save time in the restroom. By tying this string to the end of our "you know what", we can pull it out without touching it and eliminate the need to wash our hands, shortening the time spent in the restroom by 76.39 percent."
"Hhmmm...After you get it out, how do you put it back?" I asked
"Well," he whispered, "I don't know about the others... but I use the spoon."
HAHAH!!!

watch at your own discretion

2006-07-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

what you are about to watch will be a little disturbing, to say the least.
i was greatly disturbed when i saw what was happening, this being my first time watching a live performance of the kuda kepang. if your are pregnant, i would suggest you not play the video.

these are all the videos i got to take before the phone memory got full.
pictures will have to wait. i lost the usb cables and the forgot to bring back the one and only cable that i use in the office.

i'm ok, thank you

2006-07-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

thank you to those who asked. i'm fine, Alhamdulillah.
like i mentioned, it's just the unbalanced hormones in me. i really don't know why i felt like that.
anyway, yesterday was one of those days you call 'hari bodoh'.
i didn't plan on what to bring for lunch so had to go out. the day started off with a nice cool rainy day. so, lunchtime i decided it was still cool enough to keep the jacket on. bad mistake there. i was almost melting with the heat before the bus came. it was too late to go back to change so next plan was to walk without stopping or looking anywhere except when needed.
therefore, yesterday was the record time i stayed out during lunchtime. took the 12.15pm bus out and came back in the 1pm bus.
next time, remind me to look out the window before leaving the cold office. haha...
today, one part of the additional load is over. the other part will be at the end of this month. hopefully i do well enough to pass. could be a new career line for me, maybe ;-)

announcement

2006-07-14T08:55:00.000+08:00

anybody willing to donate 2 NDP or preview tickets please let me know.
thank you.

what is wrong with me?

2006-07-11T15:20:00.000+08:00

i don't know why, but PMS is hitting really hard this month.
the news i'm hearing is so not helping at all either. nevermind, don't ask what the news is/are. i don't want to share it/them.
i'm grateful that my life is on track. i'm not down in the dumps (yet), but i really can't help feeling down, especially after what i got to know of last night. (no, the fact that france lost the world cup is NOT making me feel this way. i'm not that fanatic a football fan. just watch the world cup for the spirit of the game, that's all.)
sometimes some news just hits you right smack in you face that it literally stops you right there. makes you think if the decision you've made is really the right one or not. the many what ifs questions starts forming in your head.
ok, now i'm getting even more confused. have to go n chill the only way i know that will help............

too bad

2006-07-11T09:30:00.000+08:00

ok, france lost. it was so disappointing.
i'll be waiting for the next one then.

ole! ole!

2006-07-06T09:05:00.000+08:00

yes!! my (second) prediction came true.
let's see if my prediction for the finals come true. not going to say it here just yet.
will have to see if i'll have to eat up my words or not.
the initial prediction of a Germany vs Brazil in the final match apparently didn't materialise after the kings of samba were sent home.
didn't regret the less than 2 hrs sleep i got last night. was worth the wait.

hanging in there

2006-07-03T01:20:00.000+08:00

one more paper and i'm done...NOT!!
there's still the additional load i decided to take up a few months ago. it's as important too.
this has got to be the most loaded year for me. on the bright side, i'm doing something i want to do. if i don't make it, at least i've tried.
live life with no regrets. whatever you choose, the important thing is, IT'S YOUR DECISION. don't do it just because everyone else is doing it.
ok, now i'm just rambling. ignore me. i'm just too overwhelmed. heh!

it's today?

2006-06-26T01:35:00.000+08:00

panic mode : ON.
i'm not prepared. help!!

can't get this out of my head

2006-06-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

i don't know why but i just can't seem to get this song out of my system.

The Search is Over by Survivor

How can I convince you what you see is real
Who am I to blame you for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin', you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you

*I was living for a dream,
Loving for a moment
Taking on the world,
That was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever,
The search is over
You were with me all the while*

Can we last forever, will we fall apart
At times it's so confusing, these questions of the heart
You followed me through changes, and patiently you'd wait
Till I came to my senses, through some miracle of fate

( * Repeat)

Now the miles stretch out behind me loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck it finally stuck like lightning from the blue
Every highway leading me back to you
Now at last I hold you, now all is said and done
The search has come full circle, our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain the man I really am

( * Repeat)

i feel all queasy and get goosebumps when i hear the song. having it on my mp3 playlist doesn't help at all. actually 2 words would describe this feeling very well : POST PMS.
i take no responsibility of how i feel. it's all the fault of the hormones in me. bleagh!!

tale of a rabbit

2006-06-20T10:30:00.000+08:00

enjoy the story :
A rabbit was hopping through the forest when he came upon a giraffe rolling a joint. The rabbit said, "Giraffe, don't do drugs. Come, run with me through the forest." The giraffe looked at the rabbit, then at the joint. He dropped the joint and ran off with the rabbit.
They came upon an elephant snorting cocaine. The Rabbit said, "Elephant, don't do drugs. Come, run with us through the forest." The elephant looked at his razor blade and mirror, tossed them away and began running with the rabbit and giraffe.
The three animals then came across a lion about to shoot up.The Rabbit said "Lion, don't do drugs. Come, run with us through the forest." The lion looked at the rabbit and then at the needle. He put down the needle and started to beat up the rabbit.

Horrified, the giraffe and elephant asked, "Lion, why are you doing this? He was trying to help you." The lion answered, "This little f*cker? He makes me run around the forest like a f**king idiot every time he's on ecstasy."

personality test

2006-06-19T17:40:00.000+08:00

i don't normally upload tests i take here, but i find this test interesting enough:

ISTJ - "Trustee". Decisiveness in practical affairs. Guardian of time- honored institutions. Dependable. 11.6% of total population.

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Main type	Variant

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Enneagram Test Results

Type 1	Perfectionism	63%
Type 2	Helpfulness	60%
Type 3	Image Awareness	16%
Type 4	Sensitivity	23%
Type 5	Detachment	80%
Type 6	Anxiety	63%
Type 7	Adventurousness	60%
Type 8	Aggressiveness	60%
Type 9	Calmness	70%

Your main type is 5
Your variant is social

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note : Keep in mind, your results are dependent on the accurate truth of your responses. The more you take this test and get the same result, the more likely that is your type. Finally, your scores and type, over the long term, will change as you do.

where's my discipline??

2006-06-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

i should be studying now. exams are coming and i've not done any serious cramming yet.
what's got my attention now is the world cup matches. i don't normally watch soccer but every 4 years since 1998, i've been sort of keeping up with the games.
ok, 2nd game for the day (night for us here) is coming up right about now. enjoy the game :)