not my day

how absent minded can i get?
i knew i had to be somewhere else, only to be reminded of it at 5pm.
5pm??!! the day's almost over!
i can be such an idiot...sheesh...

my life

why do i suddenly have the feeling that i'm very disconnected from everyone?

i don't know what's happening to the outside world. it's like i'm living in a world of my own.

(i'm not joking about being in my own world)

i find that my priorities and mindset are totally different. i'm the last one to hear any news which by then would be old news already. i feel lonely even when i'm with people i know. everyone else will be talking about things that i'm clueless about.

it's very depressing ok. even for an anti-social like me...

happiness is infectious

it's friday!! being with those who are happy sure is infectious.
can't wait for the day to end so the weekend can start.
see u guys later *winks* *winks*

something i'd like to share

i have been really tired of my job for quite sometime now. not that i'm complaining of the workload, but it's not what i really want to do anymore. it's like i've lost my mojo in this line already. it doesn't give me any challenge anymore. everything is routine, and i hate routine. i didn't study what i studied (and still am studying) for this. in fact, i was really learning a lot in the previous job as well as the industrial attachment 10 years ago. that is the kind of work i'm really interested in.
anyway, i have been venturing into something else totally out of the engineering line. i'm very passionate about health. ask anybody who knows me, they'll vouch for that. i'm very choosy of what i put in my mouth that i've minimised most processed food. some food can't be avoided, but i really try my very best to keep my health and mind at it's peak. it's not an easy thing to do here in singapore.
reading this aussie girl's entries about her health scares recently reminded me of the health scare i went through 10 years ago. since then, i have been making sure i get at least lots of water to keep my body hydrated. i have been taking different supplements at different points of my life, but eversince i was introduced to this, i'm not looking back. i've found something that has really helped me. from the monthly cramps to the everyday nutritional needs to some really strong coffee. what makes it the best is you get paid for buying.
yes, it's a network marketing company, but what do you have to lose? it's just a membership with so much perks that you shouldn't think twice. i only joined to get the membership perks since i'm benefitting from the supplements and also the coffee. it's really strong i tell ya. just a sachet and you'll stay awake the whole night. hehe...
i really want to share the benefits of this to everyone. can you spare me a little bit of your time? drop me a comment or mail or sms.

there is a limit to everything

i'm still thinking about this post i wrote last year. the same person is still hounding me to sell off my current iBook to him. i'm so irritated at him. he's been calling and calling till i had no choice but to resort to ignoring his calls.
i can't afford to get a new toy right now. had a sudden surge in the bills & insurance payments to pay off. after making the payments i'm left with just enough liquidated cash for emergencies.
what makes me really irritated is a few things:
this person drives a beemer. yes, that's right. a freaking BMW.
owns a landed property.
has a sideline job.
just bought a few MP3 players (including an iPod).
now, he's forcing me to sell off my iBook, my baby, for $400. what can i get for $400? doesn't even cover half the price of the cheapest macBook. i have a long list of items i want to get, but i'm not going to get any of them cos those are only what i want. i don't really need them urgently. i can't afford to get any of it yet.
if that person doesn't want to talk to me anymore, i'm fine with that. i didn't do anything wrong. i don't lose anything from this. as somebody quoted : "go screw spider ah" (he didn't actually use the word screw. i replaced it). hahah...

i'm still here, in case you're wondering

i have not updated in a month and yet there are some people who actually bother to check this blog. for this, i thank you all, whoever you all are :)
wow, it's already almost halfway thru' Jan 07 already. i was too lazy to write that i missed doing what i normally do at the end of the year - that is to reflect on what happened. i don't do resolutions unless it is required. reason being, they never get done as planned. hehe...
well, it's still not to late to reflect since the Masihi year has not ended yet right. so here goes.
where 2005 has been a somewhat unproductive and forgettable year, i decided to get off my laurels and get it going in 2006. i pushed myself as far as i could go to see what i could achieve. i did a few stumbles and took a few falls, but that didn't deter me from finishing what i've started on. i did a few major detours in the path i was taking. i did something that i didn't think i could do, and did something that i thought i could do.
so now, i welcome the year 2007 with wide and open arms. this year will mark a new beginning. a year that i plan to do a few more major rehauling.
let's see what i can achieve this year. the year i will be leaving the life of a 20-something. i'm not afraid of getting old. bring it on baby. i'm living life as i want to, not as others want me to.

why not?

since the move to the new office location, the commute is draining the life out of me. i spend over 3 hours commuting daily, from just under 2 hours before.
i have been introduced to network marketing for quite sometime. after a little consideration, i find that doing that is quite rewarding. i get my daily supplies from there, and get rewarded too. there is really nothing to lose.
so, if anyone is interested to find out more, please drop me a mail or comment. i'll be more than willing to share with you anything you want to know. from household items to health supplement.
don't just ask why, ask why not. you get rewarded just by doing the same thing, just a little differently.

the adventures of the father

now that he's ok, i can upload this pic. he didn't want to inform the sis about this initially.

now that he's discharged and wasn't put on any food restriction, somebody's eating like he's not eaten for a week :

look at all those empty plates. heheh...

one year older, one year wiser

so, what have i learnt for the past year?
after almost existing for 29 years, i surprised my own self by doing something i didn't expect i could do.
i learnt that anything is possible if you try hard enough.
i learnt that there are nice and kind people around when you least expect them to appear.
i learnt that life is too short to put off the things that you want to do.
i learnt that some things are just better off left the way it is.
well, there are more things that i have learnt in this journey we call life.
i don't regret a single thing i have done. i have lived, and still is living, my life the way i planned it to be. of course there are still more things that i would like to achieve. Insya Allah, i will do those if it is willed that i am able to.
the father's not feeling well right now.
ps : ms DivaH, it's nothing bad. no need to call home. a do'a for his health would be much appreciated.

Monday already?

can the weekend be a whole week long?
i really dislike going out on weekends. it's the only time i get to catch up on my sleep and the home. i already spend more than 12 hours everyday out of the house, so weekends are for me to stay home and rot. yeah, i'm that boring.
can't wait till the last week of December. i'll be staying home to rot in peace before the house tornado comes home. heheh...

rubs hands is glee

this calls for a plan. new digicam, new laptop, another break.
any other suggestion?
on another good note, a BIG CONGRATULATIONS to the sister for the exams. i knew you'd make it. all the (almost) panic attacks were unnecessary. *LOL*

looking forward to...

the chances of this krazy cat coming back with the sister is looking good.
now i just need to convince the parents to let him into the house. hehe...

reminiscing

looking thru' the photos from my last trip, can't help feeling so sad. the digicam just had to go bonkers right when i was trying to have a bit of fun.
now i'm looking for a new camera. haven't really decide on what brand or model to get. just looking for any cameras that makes use of SD card since the current bonked out camera's using that card.
i'm sad cos it is the first camera that is all mine. and also one of the first few pictures i took from that camera were these :






followed by a tragic end :


well, at least something good did happen as a result of the last 2 pics. made the horrible feeling i had a little lighter. just a little only.

one more day

i'm hanging on for the weekend. was down and out literally yesterday with a cold. how i really dread having a cold. the stuffed up nose, the itchy throat, the blocked feeling inside the face cavity and not to mention the constant sneezing. once i start i can't stop. that's really tiring i tell ya...
only had MC for yesterday, so i have to hang on today before i get to knock myself out this weekend. here i come bed :D
ok, have a nice weekend everyone.

think happy thoughts

suddenly, i feel so down and miserable inside yet again. i can definitely put the blame on the hormones. a sure sign i'm getting old. (i know what you're thinking naj. it's a long story which didn't include venus :D)
so what i'm going to do now is to force myself to think of happy thoughts and not wallow in misery as i would normally do. i will not let myself get sucked into a black hole.
my upcoming project will be :
to bring this little cutie here.

his "don't mess with me" look

checking out my luggage when i first got to the sis' place

who can resist this face?

see, he really wanted to follow me home. he was 'helping' me pack on my last night in oz. heheh...
after some enquiring on the net, turns out it's not that expensive to bring him back here. so ms 'DivaH', you settle all his shots over there, i'll settle the paperwork here. make sure he doesn't do the territorial marking again ok. *LOL*

Salam Lebaran

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri, Maaf Zahir Batin to everyone.

life is unpredictable

last night, an aunt from the paternal side succumbed to her illness and breathed her final breath. Inalillahi wa inaillahirraji'un. it's a blessing for her to go during this blessed month of Ramadhan. Semoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat, Amin.
ultimately, everyone will have to face death. it really doesn't matter what your status in life is. when it's your time, nothing can stop you.
it's how you live your life that really matters. you don't know what will happen to you next. you can be a healthy and fit, but that doesn't mean you will live till 100. you never know if you can even meet the next day or not. therefore, take the time to set your priorities.
i'm going to get mine straightened out too, Insya Allah. 6 more days of Ramadhan left. let's use these last few days wisely. you really don't know if you can meet the next Ramadhan or not.

i'm home

landed last night about 8.30pm. feels so good to be at home finally.
the last 2 weeks had been a very great experience. the on-campus experience could have been better though. that was too short to be part of the course module at all. i found most of it irrelevant for us who's got work experience and those who's graduated from the polytechnics here.
anyway, the overall experience from everything had been an eye-opener. thanks to everyone i met. very much thanks to the sis
who's put her academic life on hold the entire time i was there. (i miss your cat already). now it's back to the real world for all of us. i've been slacking to the max and now i'm dreading the thought of having to go to work.
on a not so good note, the digicam's busted. couldn't take decent pics since last monday (2nd oct 06). so there's not much pics from sydney. the sis offered the use of her digicam but i declined. not the same as using your own.
there's just too many pics that i took prior to the soon to be demised digicam to upload here. i just can't be bothered to do it.

i'm online, finally!

a quick hello to everyone. i'm doing fine here in the land down under, Alhamdulillah.
finally i got the connection to update this blog which has been collecting dust for almost 2 weeks.
it's almost 3.30am here but i'm not feeling that sleepy. i'm just too excited that i can finally update & check blogs. after only a week of being out of country, i feel so disconnected.
anyway, it has been a very good experience for me the past 1 week plus. spending the first day of Ramadhan not with the family wasn't the first time for me, but spending it out of the country is. what i miss is the porridge (bubur masjid)..hehe...
there's just so many things that i have to say, but i just can't find the words to express it all in the way i experienced it. (blame that on the engineer side of me - engineers make bad writers) :D
the things i had to do, the people i met, the friends who were with me and not to mention the family who is supporting me in their own way. all those me push myself out of my comfort zone. i really didn't think i have the guts to do what i did the past few days. i can do even more, Insya Allah. it's defininitely the blessing of this blessed month of Ramadhan too.
have a very blessed Ramadhan. will see you next week, Insya Allah :)

almost ready

clothing is packed. toiletries and food are not.
tomorrow is the start of Ramadhan. wishing all brothers and sisters a Ramadhan Mubarak.
see ya in 2 and a half weeks.