i'm feeling much, much better than when i typed in the previous entry.
i've got sooo much pics to be uploaded. just got myself some new 'toys' last saturday.
got a multi-card reader and an external hard disk drive. those finished the money i got from the profit sharing of the insurance i have.
anyway, will be taking the afternoon off today. got to clear up some stuff by this morning.
was bloghopping when i saw this link on somebody's blog.
this is what i read. what i'm feeling is in bold.
Everyone has felt sad at one time or another. Usually it is due to a disappointment, frustration or losing someone. Such sadness is normal. Time heals, the mood lifts and people continue to get on with their lives.
But in some people, depression can be so severe that it dominates their lives, preventing them from coping as they are used to. Depression of this degree is an illness and needs treatment.
WHAT ARE THE SYMPTOMS OF DEPRESSION?
The following are the most common symptoms of depression. If you experience 5 or more of these symptoms for 2 weeks or longer, you are probably depressed.
Persistent sadness or feeling down or gloomy
A loss of interest in activities previously enjoyed, such as socializing with friends and family, most of the day, nearly every day.
Loss of appetite and loss of weight.
Insomnia. For some people, on the contrary, they find that they are sleeping more than normal.
Feeling restless and agitated more easily.
Feeling tired and having little energy.
Unable to concentrate and think clearly and thereby becoming indecisive.
Feeling of worthlessness and guilt.
Recurrent thoughts of death (Na'uzubillah. will never think of this even if i've totally lost it.)
i think this is the most depressing year i've ever gone through. i just need one good news. if not i don't know what else to do.........
what a whirlwind it has been the past few days. thursday morning finished my exams for the semester. no more exams to think of for the next 3 months.
wanted to take home my 'baby' but the real fault was not rectified. so it had to stay longer in the hospital. finally got to take it home today.
the summary of what happened the past few days:
thursday:
morning - exam
afternoon - ran some errands, checked on the iBook
evening - reached home to find an unexpected member of the family already home (the 'DivaH' pulled her stunt again)
morning - slept in
afternoon - accompanied the brother to clinic to get the surgery wound checked
evening - waiting at TTSH A&E cos the clinic sent the brother to hospital
night - still at TTSH. the brother had to be admitted
saturday:
morning - irrititating sister made me wake up
afternoon - went to get the iBook from the 'hospital'. finally it's good as new. then off to TTSH to see the brother
evening - the brother got discharged. his head is literally fine now.
night - HOME SWEET HOME
on a bad note, the common pc at home crashed the day the whole family was 'reunited'. i've got sooo much files in there. all my reports, downloaded files and pictures are there. need some help here. even the brother doesn't know what to do, let alone me.
really hope my files could be salvaged :(
due to sheer boredom of waiting for the doctor at the A&E, i took some pictures with the camera phone. now that the pc's crashed and i haven't configured the iBook's internet connection, i can't update the pics for now. will put up the pics another time.
what a relief!! i managed to finish doing an online paper yesterday. thank god that is the only non-exam module with a timed last assignment.finally sent my 'baby' to the 'hospital'. after over a year of it being sick. now have to wait for a few days to get the diagnosis. hopefully it's only a hardware fault. for software fault i have to fork out $150! i was just thinking of getting an external hard disk. the home pc is running out of space.so the brother is finally allowed to come back. i'll finish my exams by then. have to clear up the clutter before him & mother comes back...hehehone more paper to go on Thursday and i'll be free for the next 3 months. finally after 2 years of no proper rest i'll have some time free enough to do something else. lots of things in mind. hope i can do all.
(this is the 5th time i'm publishing this. S****D BLOGSPOT.COM :p)
i know i'm a day late in the wish, but i still would like to wish all muslim brothers and sisters Eid Mubarak.
this year, the month of Syawal comes without the usual urgency. i put up the curtains only last night. there's no thorough spring cleaning. the most i did was gave the whole house a run over with a damp mop. didn't even use floor cleaner. the windows didn't get cleaned. the cookies/tarts the neighbour gave is still not in the container for Hari Raya. i don't have anything new to wear for the first day.
this year, for the first time in my life, i actually greeted the 1st of Syawal alone (father was sleeping when i woke up). woke up to shower then met the neighbours to perform Solat 'Aidilfitri.
i don't know how to describe how i feel. it's worse than the time i had to spend the eve and morning of Hari Raya in the hospital. at least mother came on the eve and father picked me up in the morning. to get away from reality, i went to Geylang bazaar at 1 am in the morning of 1st Syawal. got home abt 3 plus.
ok, did i manage to sound pathetic? before i get more pathetic, i'll be off now. it's about 4.30 now. have an online paper to take in half an hours time.
