this is it

this comment has stayed with me since it has been mentioned. at that point of time, i still have a few more modules to take so i just didn't bother to look around.
last week, something that is not my responsibility to monitor was made into a very big issue. i admitted to overlooking my part of the responsibility, but the person who is supposed to monitor that particular item was not even questioned.
after the above comment was made, i have lost the heart to continue working in this place. what made me stay is the thought of having to settle into a new work environment and still studying. didn't know how to adjust since i can do my schoolwork while at work now.
after the one-to-one meeting last monday, i left the room feeling so down and frustrated and dejected. nothing has ever made me feel so bad about myself. he made me feel like i owed him the position i am at right now at work.
i firmly believe in retribution. i will not retaliate as that will make me look even worse than what he has make me look like now. maybe i have become comfortable that i became complacent, but i truly do not believe that i am worse off that what he said i am. i will definitely go before you can have the chance to put me in a worse position.
maybe my journey has to take on a new path. it will be sad to leave the place that i have considered to be my second home for the past 7+ years (i spend more time there than at home). but something has to change sometime or somewhere. it may do me a lot more good that staying here.