HOT

been really hot these few days. the aircon in the office is at 18 degrees Celsius and i'm not frozen. on a normal day, a temperature of 22 degrees Celsius will make me frozen almost solid.
walking around the house with a fan in hand. can't bring the electric one around right.
have been drinking water from the time i open my eyes till i close it at night. already made 4 trips to the little girls' room since morning. feel like going again now.
the parents are complaining about the heat too. extra hot for them since they just got back from a cold climate.
ok really need to go now..............

they're back

the parents are back.
life is back to the old routine. going to miss the past 2 weeks.

i did it!!

got a call from an aunt to accompany her to the mosque for Maulidul Rasul. she brought the new grandaughter for her cukur rambut. asked me to help her out. since a baby is involved here, gladly agreed.
had to follow the aunt and uncle to send the little lady back to woodlands. what happened on the way back was something i never thought i could ever do again.for the first time since 18th Jan 2004, i DROVE!!
was almost practically pushed into the driver's seat. the uncle absolutely insisted he was tired and wants to rest. he got into the back seat so with trembling knees yours truly got into the driver's seat and did the neccessary adjustments.
got flashbacks almost immediately when hands were on the steering wheels. recited countless prayers along the way. Alhamdulillah, reached home in one piece. knees were almost like jelly after that though. still like jelly now, but firmer already now. heheh...
this year is becoming the year of many firsts. hope the first something that happens next is a pleasant one. don't want to be reminded of anything tragic/unhappy anymore. had enough unhappy/unpleasant memories to last a whole lifetime.

slow week

week started off with a very slow start. was feeling really tired yesterday morning. didn't feel like getting up.
had a full weekend. for a self-declared anti-social that's a big feat. stayed the whole day at an uncle's place on saturday for a wedding reception. attended a poly-mate who's my junior's wedding on sunday. didn't bother to go to a cousin's son's cukur rambut.
getting very irritated by the lady engineer. she thinks i know nothing about the project. HELLO!! was very much involved in a previous project that was very similar to this. i know i've forgotten much of the interface but it's not something to die for. a 'test' is certainly not neccessary here. sheesh...women!! (i'm a 100% female homo-sapien ok).
so many things to do, so little time. have to learn an evaluating software by monday and will be on an irrelevant course on thursday & friday. have to help a colleague ammend some documents. need to learn the interface of current project. have an assignment due next week and no textbook right now.
when there's things to do it's all due at the same time. when there's nothing to do there's really nothing to do but shake your legs. go to get started on something now. good night.

one more week

hear the parents are not really enjoying their time in Australia. some hiccups along the way. feel very sorry about the hiccups. this is supposed to be a relaxing trip for them.
another week of staying alone, then life goes back to normal. beginning to really enjoy staying all alone. call me selfish, i don't care, but i think i really like it this way. tempted to get a place to call my own. the only irritating factor is the calls and sms from 'very concerned' people.
am doing ok here. do not need all the attention. am a self-declared anti-social but has friends everywhere. a contradicting statement there, i know.
becoming an insomniac eversince the parents went off. the only productive thing achieved is the completion of quite a major assignment. manage to wake up on time and catch the empty mrt. wasn't sleepy at work either. didn't even fall asleep during a meeting (a 3 hrs long meeting).
ok, need to submit the income tax return for an aunt. stupid new system is really irritating. can't seem to change the password. time is running out...

another one down

didn't want to watch the hindi movie, but Arjun Rampal's in it!! got stuck in front of the google box...heheh
went to the engagement of a dear friend. she happens to be a constant travelling buddy. was one of those involved in the unforgetable incident last year too.
doesn't she look lovely. congratulations Ina & Mohd. may you both be blessed with happiness forever.

went to visit an uncle who had a hernia surgery. didn't get to visit when he was at the hospital so had the time just now. watched the marriage of Prince Charles to Camilla. finally they got to be together. so sad other lives were involved in the middle. they should have just got married in the first place.
the issue of getting married never fail to open my eyes. am already in the category of late 20s now. you can call me choosy but i don't care. hey, you don't just pick a life partner like choosing fish in the market.
thought i might have found THE ONE. made a do'a during a Qiamulail session in Ramadhan of Nov 2003. a few weeks later, crossed paths with someone i have not met for 14 yrs. almost crossed paths with the person a few years earlier. a very helpful friend wanted to introduce me to her friend's brother. turned out to be the same person. he's a really nice guy. so imagine the surprise & shock when i got to know him thru the world wide web. not so wide after all c",)
am waiting for the right someone to come to change my mind. what is meant to be will be, what is not meant to be will never be.

FREEDOM

notice the caps above? for the first time in my entire life (really!!), i'm being left alone. my family has 'abandoned' me. but who's fretting here.
i'm actually ecstatic now. for the first time, there's no need to make sure there's food at home, no need to give wake-up calls, no need to make sure everything is in order before going to bed. the reason for all the above is the parents have gone to visit sis & bro dearest for 2 weeks.
now only have to make sure house is clean. plan is to do all the major cleaning by tomorrow, then no need to fret over small issues.
parents should be in the plane now. should be reaching Sydney about 6pm Singapore time. didn't plan to send them off at airport but decided at the last minute to take half day urgent leave. took some pics at airport. will post it later.
have to start work now. have class tonight. long day today. but still HAPPY (for now)...

brainwashed

mother said somebody called to accuse her of bad-mouthing that person. she heard it from the daughter of this old lady who mother has been helping out.
that person said some not so good things, which i won't say here (i won't stoop as low), to mother.
mother has been helping out that old lady out of her compassion and without anything expected in return. everytime mother comes back from that old lady's house, there will be a bag of dishes prepared by that old lady.
what i'm very pissed now is the fact that the person who called mother started accusing mother of all the things that has been relayed to her by the daughter without any sort of investigation. if you think my mother has been saying things that are not true about you, must you start shooting off accusations without any questions asked?
must my mother be wrong just because you are hearing these from somebody who is related to you?
do you really think my mother has nothing better to do than gossiping about other people?
one thing i have to say, i'm not going to turn up for the grandson's cukur rambut. i won't want to have anything to do with anyone who doesn't trust my mother.
i don't mind not having any relatives, but my mother is everything to me.

hate her even more now

all thanks to the lady engineer, monday was spoilt rotten for me. came back to the office to a really unpleasant e-mail from the Programme Manager. to make things worse was the mail was directed to me but mailed to everyone in the team.
was suppose to update the welfare money balance to the team. normally just a simple excel spreadsheet was enough to give the rough amount collected and spent along with additional fund. thanks to the person that now i am hating, she replied to everyone asking me how the amount was derived. in all the 5 years of me collecting and updating the amount, never once anybody asked how the final amount was derived. as long as there's no excess expenditure, everyone else was happy.
never worked with a woman before so this is really something i really cannot take. one, she is just a contract staff. two, i've been the one doing the work all this while without any glitch. this is only addtional activity tasked to me. it's not a very big issue how it goes. i'm not employed to do this kind of thing ok. i'm only doing it because no one else wants to do it.
thank God the Programme Manager wasn't in today. but still have to face the music tomorrow. worse case scenario i won't be the one holding the money anymore. that's even better.
really...really...really...really...really HATE that person now. worst thing is she's in the same project as me. just have to keep it on a professional level. can't bring personal matter into work. really love my job. can't think of doing anything else, except move up in this line. please don't let that person spoil it for me now.

day of shopping

went to Sim Lim to accompany neighbour to get a new pc. had a great help from a colleague to accompany us for advice. she finally decided to get the pc she went to look at yesterday.
after that went to Mustafa Centre for another round of shopping. wanted to get Smores or Chocolate Fudge Pop Tarts but no luck there. only Grape, Blueberry and Sugar & Cinnamon available. was a bit disappointed but made up for that by getting a basketfull of other foodstuff. got 3 different flavours of papadums, some snacks and tom yam maggi mee. not to forget a hindi movie vcd c",)
the neighbour wanted to get track pants but couldn't find a pair that she likes. got herself some foodstuff only.
waiting for the pc to be delivered now. will be going up to see if the files in the old pc can be salvaged.