Tuesday, October 26, 2004

i want to cry

i felt like crying just now. it's not easy working with someone who wants things done his way and only his. if that's the case there's no need for me to go and check if it can be done or not. i can just request for it to be done and save my breath. he didn't have to raise his voice at me. and this wasn't the first time. there were a few other times when he told, no ordered me to do something with a raised voice.

i am not a child where a raised voice will bring fear to myself. i am an adult and so is he (i think). all he has to do is just tell me to get the work done and i'll be more than happy to do it since it is my job afterall. i didn't come here to just stare at the computer and blog away everyday. i didn't pursue further studies to just laze around and do nothing. i came here to work and work i will.

he thinks he's so high up there just because he has a slip of paper with a degree written on it. well i'm on my way to get that slip of paper too, so hah!!

ok now i feel much better. and thanks to the angels who helped me get better too. you should know who you are dears ;-)

have to get started again

i really have to start on my workout schedule again. haven't been doing any serious workout except for brisk walking. and that is only when i'm going to work and coming back home. i make it a point to walk from home to the mrt station in the morning and back in the evening.

3 years of intensive workout and suddenly stopping is definitely not a good idea. the latest you can totally stop if you regularly workout is up to 2 months. after that it's back from scratch. i don't mind the starting from scratch workout but the sagging of the muscles that you have toned over the years is what's really bothering me now. it's worse than fats!!! you look all flabby where u used to be toned and firm. i can't bear looking into the mirror. makes me want to cry :*(

it's not that i don't have the time at all or the equipment. you don't need much of those. just 15-20 mins each day is enough. it's the motivation that i lack now. even looking into the mirror doesn't give the push to make me start. i know, i know, i'm a big procrastinator.it's the worst habit to have but you just can't shake it off just like that. ok now that i've confessed i'm going to do something tonight. if i don't then bite me...hahah!!

it's the 12th day of Ramadhan already. almost half gone. what have you done so far? i'm trying my best to recite the Qur'an daily. don't think i can finish it but i'm doing what i can. work and studies are taking up most of my time. exam's next week and i'm taking another week off to clear my leave. can't wait...YIPPEEE!!!

here's something for the day (or till the next update) :

26 Beautiful One-liners

1. Give Allah what's right -- not what's left.
2. Man's way leads to a hopeless end -- Allah's way leads to an endless hope.
3. A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.
4. He who kneels before Allah can stand before anyone.
5. In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma --but never let him be the period.
6. Don't put a question mark where Allah puts a period.
7. Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the mosque for a face-lift.
8. When praying, don't give Allah instructions -- just report for duty.
9. Don't wait for six strong men to take you to the mosque.
10. We don't change Allah's message -- His message changes us.
11. The mosque is prayer-conditioned.
12. When Allah ordains, He sustains.
13. WARNING: Exposure to the Allah may prevent burning.
14. Plan ahead -- It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark.
15. Most people want to serve Allah, but only in an advisory position.
16. Suffering from truth decay? Brush up on your Koran.
17. Exercise daily -- walk with Allah.
18. Never give the devil a ride -- he will always want to drive.
19. Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.
20. Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.
21. He who angers you controls you.
22. Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop.
23. Give Satan an inch & he'll be a ruler.
24. Be ye fishers of men -- you catch them & He'll clean them.
25. Allah doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.
26. Read the Koran -- It will scare the hell out of you.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

five days already

it's already the fifth day of Ramadhan. how are you all feeling? still strong i hope. here's something i extracted from a website recommended from a friend :

Fasting - A Natural Nutrition Therapy
By Dr. Elson M. Haas

Fasting is the “missing link” in the Western diet as most people there over-eat.

Fasting is the single greatest natural healing therapy. It is nature’s ancient, universal “remedy” for many problems. Animals instinctively fast when ill. When I first discovered fasting, 15 years ago, I felt as if it had saved my life and transformed my illnesses into health. My stagnant energies began flowing, and I became more creative and vitally alive. I still find fasting both a useful personal tool and an important therapy for many medical and life problems.

Of course, most of the problems for which I recommend fasting as treatment are ones that result from over-nutrition rather than malnutrition. Dietary abuse problems, more common in the Western world than in Third World countries, generate many of the chronic degenerative diseases that I have written so much about; these include atherosclerosis, hypertension and heart disease, allergies, diabetes, and cancer. I believe that fasting is therapeutic and, more importantly, preventive for many of these conditions and more.

Fasting (cleansing, detoxification) is one part of the triology of nutrition; balancing and building (toning) are the others. I believe that fasting is the “missing link” in the Western diet. Most people over-eat, eat too often, and eat a high-protein, high-fat, rich-food, building and congesting diet more consistently than they need. If we regularly eat a more balanced and well-combined diet, we will have less need for fasting and toning plans, although both would still be required at certain intervals throughout the year.

In a sense, detoxification is an important corrective and rejuvenative process in our cycle of nutrition. It is a time when we allow our cells and organs to breathe out, become current, and restore themselves. We do not necessarily need to fast to experience some cleansing, however. Minor shifts in the diet such as including more fluids, more raw foods, and fewer congesting foods will allow for better detoxification; for a carnivore, for example, a vegetarian or macrobiotic diet will be cleansing and purifying.

Fasting is a time-proven remedy. Its use goes back many thousands of years, really to the beginning of life forms. Voluntary abstinence from food has been a tradition in most religions and is clearly a spiritual purification rite. Many religions, including Christianity, Judaism, and the Eastern religions, have encouraged fasting for a variety of reasons, such as penitence, preparation for ceremony, purification, mourning, sacrifice and union with God, and the enhancement of knowledge and powers. From Moses, Elijah, and Daniel to Christ, the Bible is filled with fasters, who employed it to assist their purification and communion with God. Fasts as long as 40 days were employed to cleanse people of sins and the “devil.”

(Dr. Haas, (M.D) is the Director of the Preventive Medical Center of Marin, with offices in San Rafael and San Jose, California). (www.islamonline.net).


Light Suhoor and Lighter Iftar!
By Mohammad Zafar A. Nomani

A balanced diet is sufficient to keep a person healthy and active during the month of Ramadan

Fasting during the Islamic month of Ramadan can be good for one’s health and personal evelopment. Ramadan fasting is not just about disciplining the body to restrain from eating food and drinking water from predawn until sunset. The eyes, the ears, the tongue, and even the private parts are equally obligated to be restrained if a Muslim wants to gain the total rewards of fasting. Ramadan is also about restraining anger, doing good deeds, exercising personal discipline, and preparing oneself to serve as a good Muslim and a good person during and after Ramadan.

This is why the Messenger of Allah (Pbuh) has been attributed, by Hazrat Abu Hurairah in the Hadith, to say: “He who does not desist from obscene language and acting obscenely (during the period of fasting), Allah has no need that he didn’t eat or drink.” (Bukhari, Muslim). In another Hadith by Hazrat Abu Hurairah, the Prophet (Pbuh) said: “Fasting is not only from food and drink, fasting is to refrain from obscene (acts). If someone verbally abuses you or acts ignorantly toward you, say (to them) ‘I am fasting; I am fasting.”

Ramadan fasting has spiritual, physical, psychological, and social benefits; however, man-made problems may occur, if fasting is not properly practised. First of all, there is no need to consume excess food at iftar (the food eaten immediately after sunset to break fast), dinner or sahur ( the light meal generally eaten about half an hour to one hour before dawn). The body has regulatory mechanisms that activate during fasting. There is efficient utilisation of body fat, basal metabolism slows down during Ramadan fasting and a diet that is less than a normal amount of food intake, but balanced is sufficient enough to keep a person healthy and active during the month of Ramadan. Health problems can emerge as a result of excess food intake

Here is a Dietary Plan1.
Bread/Cereal/Rice, Biscuits and Cracker Group: 6-11 servings/day; 2. Meat/Beans/ Nut Group: 2-3 servings/day. 3. Milk and Milk Product Group: 2-3 servings/day. 4. Vegetable Group: 3-5 servings/day; 5. Fruit Group: 2-4 servings/day. 6. Added sugar (table sugar, sucrose): sparingly. 7. Added fat, polyunsaturated oil 4-7 table spoons

Iftar:
Three Dates
Juice- 1 serving (4 oz.)
Vegetable soup- 1 cup
The body’s immediate need at the time of iftar is to get an easily available energy source in the form of glucose for every living cell, particularly the brain and nerve cells. Dates and juices are good sources of sugars. Dates and juice in the above quantity are sufficient to bring low blood glucose levels to normal levels. Juice and soup help maintain water and mineral balance in the body. An unbalanced diet and too many servings of sherbets and sweets with added sugar have been found to be unhealthy.

Dinner:
Consume foods from all the following food groups:
Meat/Bean Group: Chicken, beef, lamb, goat, fish, 1-2 servings (serving size = a slice =1 oz); green pea, chickpea, green gram, black gram, lentil and other beans, 1 serving (half cup). Meat and beans are a good source of protein, minerals, and certain vitamins. Beans are a good source of dietary fibre, as well.

Bread/Cereal Group: Whole wheat bread, 2 servings (serving size = 1 oz) or cooked rice, one cup or combination. This group is a good source of complex carbohydrates, which are a good source of energy and provide some protein, minerals and dietary fibre.

Milk Group: milk or butter-milk (lassi without sugar), yogurt or cottage cheese (one cup). Those who cannot tolerate whole milk must try fermented products such as butter-milk and yogurt. Milk and dairy products are good sources of protein and calcium, which are essential for body tissue maintenance and several physiological functions.

Vegetable Group: Mixed vegetable salad, 1 serving (one cup), (lettuce, carrot, parsley, cucumber, broccoli, coriander leaves, cauliflower or other vegetables as desired.) Add 2 teaspoons of any polyunsaturated oil and 2 spoons of vinegar. Polyunsaturated fat provides the body with essential fatty acids and keto acids. Cooked vegetables such as beans, bhindi, baigan, bottle -gourd , cabbage, spinach, 1 serving (4 oz). Vegetables are a good source of dietary fibre. These are helpful in the prevention of cancer, cardiovascular diseases, and many other health problems.

Fruits Group: 1-2 servings of citrus and/or other fruits. Eat fruits as the last item of the dinner or soon after dinner, to facilitate digestion and prevent many gastrointestinal problems. Citrus fruits provide vitamin C. Fruits are a good source of dietary fibre.

Pre-dawn Meal (sahur):Consume a light sahur. Eat whole wheat or oat cereal or whole wheat bread, 1-2 serving with a cup of milk. Add 2-3 teaspoons of any polyunsaturated fats in a salad or the cereal. Eat 1-2 servings of fruits, as a last item.

During Ramadan increased gastric acidity is often noticed, exhibiting itself with symptoms such as a burning feeling in the stomach, a heaviness in the stomach, and a sour mouth. Whole wheat bread, vegetables, beans, and fruits are an excellent source of dietary fibre which helps reduce gastric acidity and excess bile acids. Peptic ulcer patients should avoid spicy foods and consult a doctor for appropriate medicine and diet. Diabetic people, particularly severe type I (insulin dependent) or type II (non-insulin dependent), must consult their doctor for the type and dosage of medicine, and diet and precautions to be taken during the month. Generally diabetes mellitus, type II, is manageable through proper diet during Ramadan

• Drink sufficient water between Iftar and sleep to avoid dehydration
• Consume sufficient vegetables at meals. Eat fruits at the end of the meal
• Avoid intake of high sugar foods through sweets or other forms.
• Avoid spicy foods.
• Avoid caffeine drinks such as coke or coffee. Caffeine is a diuretic. Three days to five days before Ramadan gradually reduce the intake of these drinks. A sudden decrease in caffeine prompts headaches, mood swings and irritability.
• Smoking is a health risk factor. Avoid smoking cigarettes.
• Do not forget to brush or Miswak. Brush your teeth before sleep and after sahur.
• Normal or overweight people should not gain weight. For overweight people Ramadan is an excellent opportunity to lose weight.
• It is recommended that everyone engage in some kind of light exercise, such as stretching or walking.

(The writer is Professor of Nutrition, West Virginia University and can be reached at mnomani@wvu.edu).

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Ramadhan is here again

the blessed month of Ramadhan is here again. so to all muslim brothers and sisters, SELAMAT MENUNAIKAN IBADAH PUASA, SEMOGA BULAN INI MEMBERI PENUH BERKAT.
this month will always bring back the memories of the loooongest hospital stay i had. date of admission : 3rd Jan 97, date of discharge : 13th Jan 97, date of re-admission : 22nd Jan 97, date of discharge : 30th Jan 97. that was the longest month of my life. what made it even worse is that i spent the night before Hari Raya in hospital. listening to the 'takbir' thru the radio made my eyes tear. the most touching part is seeing most of the people i know taking their time to come and see me in the hospital. the friend who waited for me when i was in the operating theatre. the friends who came more than once to bring other friends. and the friends who even visited me at home to bring the latest notes because i was not able to go to school.
not forgetting my own family who did all they can to help me get better, especially my mother. she will come and visit me almost everyday. and my father who will come at night after he gets off from work and drive a cab part time. the day when i was allowed to go home for Hari Raya really makes me smile now. that was the day i had to go around with the hospital tag on my hand. the day when everyone else are decked in jewelry i was walking around with that special 'bracelet'...heheh...
this was also when i was not able to fast the whole month. eventually manage to compensate the whole month before the next Ramadhan. even inspired other friends who had yet to compensate their fast to join me :D
to all muslim brothers and sisters, make full use of this month. who knows if you can live to the next month of Ramadhan or not. live your life as though it is your last day.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

i need sleep

it's been a year since i've taken up the part time studies and it's been the same time since i've had a decent night's sleep. it was made worse recently by bed bugs.
these bugs came about somewhere last year. at first it infected my brother's room. we discovered that the table that our neighbour exchanged with us were the breeding ground for these pests. they 'took over' his bed, then were 'carried' outside to the living room, my parents room next and now MY ROOM!! it's such a nuisance. i have to do inspection before sleeping now, and each inspection will take at least 15 mins - to check every crevice in the mattress and pillow.
mother helped to spray insecticide and i ended up just laying my bed cover on the floor and slept there. now my back is really stiff from spending the whole night on the floor. couldn't sleep properly either, kept waking up every few hours just thinking of those pests. i am willing to do anything to kill them. almost wanted to take every item infected down and just burn them. that was how frustrated i felt. it's like they've taken over the house.
do you know just how disturbing it is to have some creepy crawlies living with you. i'm not a squirmish person. i can crush any cockroach and pick it up by the feelers with my bare hands but when it comes to this blood sucking pests it just freaks me out. just imagine something crawling on you when you sleep and suck your blood. even mosquitoes sounds much better :D

here's some information about these creepy crawlies for those who wants to read about it :

Bed bugs are in the insect family Cimicidae and include three species that attack people. Of these, the most important is Cimex lectularius, which may also bite bats, birds, and rodents.
Cimex lectularius is a cosmopolitan species, most frequently found in the northern temperate climates of North America, Europe, and Central Asia. It occurs more sporadically in southern temperate regions. In Florida and tropical regions it is replaced by C. hemipterus. Problems with bed bug infestations used to be quite severe, but with the use of DDT after World War II the incidence of these pests has been greatly reduced, although infestations still do occur. Currently this insect can be a pest wherever sanitary conditions are primitive, or if there are birds or mammals nesting on or near a house. Crowded and dilapidated housing can also facilitate the insect's movement between residences.

IDENTIFICATION AND LIFE CYCLE
Adult bed bugs are oval, wingless, about 1/5 inch long, and rusty red or mahogany in color. Their bodies are flattened, they have well-developed antennae, their compound eyes are small, and the area behind the head (the prothorax) expands forward on either side of the head. The immatures appear identical to the adults except for their smaller size, thinner cuticle, and a lighter, yellowish white color. Bed bugs are readily distinguished from another more common bloodsucking species, conenose bugs,
by their smaller size, more rounded shape, and lack of wings as adults.
Female bed bugs lay from 200 to 500 eggs (in batches of 10 to 50) on rough surfaces such as wood or paper. Eggs are covered with a glue and hatch in about 10 days. After hatching, the egg shells frequently remain on the substrate. There are five progressively larger nymphal stages, each requiring a single blood meal before molting to the next stage. The entire life cycle from egg to adult requires anywhere from 5 weeks to 4 months, depending on temperature. When temperatures are in the range of 70° to 82°F, development occurs most rapidly. Nymphs and adults generally feed at night and hide in crevices during the day. Common hiding places include seams in mattresses and box springs, cracks in bed frames, under loose wallpaper, behind picture frames, and inside furniture and upholstery.
Bed bugs can go without feeding for 80 to 140 days; older stages can survive longer without feeding than younger ones. Adults have survived without food for as long as 550 days. A bed bug can take six times its weight in blood, and feeding can take 3 to 10 minutes. Adults live about 10 months and there can be up to 3 to 4 generations of bed bugs per year.
Occasionally bed bugs may be picked up in theaters, on buses and trains, or brought into homes on clothing, bedding, luggage, or firewood. Bed bugs that live on other mammals and birds found near the home (chickens, mice, rats, and rabbits) may under certain circumstances feed on humans if their primary hosts are removed.

DAMAGE
Bed bugs are not usually considered to be disease carriers. They do suck blood from their host with piercing mouthparts that contain two stylets: one stylet has a groove that carries saliva into the wound, while the other has a groove through which body fluids from the host are imbibed. Saliva that is injected during the feeding can produce large swellings on the skin that itch and may become irritated and infected when scratched. In addition, bed bugs have stink glands that leave odors; they also leave fecal spots on bed sheets and around their hiding places.

MANAGEMENT
Infestations of bed bugs can be detected by looking for their fecal spots, egg cases, and exuviae (shed skins) under wallpaper, behind picture frames, and inside cracks and crevices near beds. Carefully inspect the bed frame, undersides of windows, door casings, and loose moldings.
Indirect measures can go a long way in controlling bed bugs: keep bats and birds away from houses; clean furnishings, launder bedding and mattress pads, and steam-clean mattresses; and prevent bed bugs from getting into homes by removing debris from around the house, repairing cracks in walls, and caulking windows and doors.
Simple physical control methods include standing the legs of beds in soapy water, coating the legs with petroleum jelly or double-sided sticky tape. Bed bugs cannot climb polished glasss or metal easily and they don't fly, so that the legs of beds can also be placed inside glass jars or metal cans. Heating to 97° to 99°F will kill most bed bugs, as will temperatures below 48°F.
Chemical control includes the use of a residual insecticide (usually pyrethroids) in cracks and crevices. Sprays containing natural pyrethrins can also be used. Sorptive dusts such as fumed silica (also called diatomaceous earth) are useful in closed, hard-to-reach places. These treatments are best done by a professional pesticide applicator.